Help what’s your relationship with alcohol

[loslassen]

I am in no way really knowledgeable, I don't believe I'm an alcoholic but, I just had the worst hangover of my life and i'm sure it's bc I drank with an empty stomach, but I mostly feel like shit because not even while drunk I could talk about my feelings (I've been keeping in that I attempted just a week ago and hurt myself) and I just cried like a stupid bitch and looked like a bad drinker. I kinda ruined the night for my friends, I think they love me too much to tell me but the looks on their faces I will never forget.

anyway I feel like shit, I'm getting alcoholic neuropathy, my pulse is super heavy, I'm cold and I feel nauseous as hell but I just wanna put it out here, what about others? feel free to share your experiences and thoughts :(

 

[divinemistress36]

I occasionally drink. Hangovers are to bad the next day if I didnt get hangovers I would be drunk 24/7 as alcohol is the best to temporarily numb emotions but the next day is hell

 

[Ironborn]

Drink was probably the only thing that kept me going the last decade or so. For a few hours a week I could drown out my anxiety and stop myself from overthinking and relax but I had to drink more and more as the years went by to the point where the negatives outweighed any relief I got.
I've stopped drinking now and realise it was only a stop gap measure, my desire to ctb is stronger than it has ever been.

 

[lastboyscout]

Close relationship, both cant stay away from each other .
One time he broke my pancreas but we managed to get back together again

 

[leavingsoonx]

Drinking at 12pm lol. Not an alcoholic but it helps with feeling like I'm okay and normal. I don't care about anything as much

 

[Calliandras]

Fucking love It, one of the few things I still enjoy in life. Of course my family took It away after my last attempt, so it's been a month since I last drank. I think they think I only get suicidal when i'm drunk, which couldn't be farther from the truth lol

 

[Agon321]

I don't drink alcohol.
I don't want it, I don't need it, and for some reason my body reacts very badly to alcohol. Even just a few beers can very quickly give me a stomach ache, nausea, and a general very bad feeling.
The smell of vodka automatically makes me want to vomit.

Also, the fact that in my closest environment I saw what alcohol can do to a person, completely turns me off.

 

[maniac116]

My relationship with alcohol is love/hate. I'm a sober alcoholic.
I'm in recovery for many years.
I just couldn't stand cravings & the shakes, the massive hangovers.
I want to CTB especially when I'm suffering. So removing alcohol from my life removed 1 source of my suffering

 

[Innereye]

Once every 6 months I unleash the demon and go on a 2 week bender. then I quit cold turkey.

 

[lastboyscout]

Drinking at 12pm lol. Not an alcoholic but it helps with feeling like I'm okay and normal. I don't care about anything as much

12pm its almost lunch time
u shouldnt skip breakfast. normally a bread with butter with a glass of Brandy hits the spot for me lol

 

[ham and potatoes]

I drink more than i should. Im not like getting hammered everyday, but having a small bottle of wine or a 6 pack every couple days.
Used to drink way more and way harder, been trying to cut back

 

[Chaosire]

I used to have periods where I drank too much, like a few bottles of wine each day for a week or two. But I was always able to stop myself from becoming fully dependent and then switched to cannabis for a weeks until I feared to become dependent to that. And that cycle continued for a while, sometimes with a few weeks of sobriety or only social drinking.
Got forced into addiction therapy, but luckily got out pretty quickly because I never got fully addicted to it and didn't have any issues with staying sober whilst in that ward.
Started drinking and smoking again after I got out, but to a lesser degree.
I'm 3 years sober and clean now, I'm silly enough without substance abuse anyways.