Discussion What’s your plan?

[limelight]

How long have you been suicidal?

Are you really doing it?

Method? At what time and where?

Personally I've been wanting to die for the last 6-7 years, but the last year has made me 100% sure about what I want... To have peace. Thinking partial hanging, not sure when or where, but hopefully soon. Can't stand this loneliness any more.

 

[turbofly3ddeath]

For a long time too. But recently, like you I am more than 100%

Method, is what I am trying to work on

 

[limelight]

For a long time too. But recently, like you I am more than 100%

Method, is what I am trying to work on

Do you also feel kind of calm about it once you've finally decided? I'm not scared to die anymore. It's a relief!

 

[turbofly3ddeath]

Yes. The only fear I have is of failure. I find myself letting certain things go because I know I won't have to worry about it soon. How soon were you going to?

 

[limelight]

Don't know, wish I'd do it this month. I'm also afraid of failing and ending up a vegetable. And I don't know how my IS is working, because I've only tried with sleepingpills (clearly not enough, didn't know better) and cutting my wrists while drunk. The human body is stronger than I thought, so I feel like hanging is the safest option. Unfortunately I'm so scared of breaking my neck and just hang there in pain for several minutes...

 

[turbofly3ddeath]

Don't know, wish I'd do it this month. I'm also afraid of failing and ending up a vegetable. And I don't know how my IS is working, because I've only tried with sleepingpills (clearly not enough, didn't know better) and cutting my wrists while drunk. The human body is stronger than I thought, so I feel like hanging is the safest option. Unfortunately I'm so scared of breaking my neck and just hang there in pain for several minutes...

Yeah, it pains me on how durable the human body can be especially when you dont want it to be. I'm scared of only getting paralysed and then having to live out my life

 

[Superfluous]

I don't really consider myself suicidal in the traditional sense, but I made the choice to end my life about 10 years ago. I've just always wanted to go on my terms.

The time to do so is fast approaching, most likely next month, although I may be able to stretch that to June.

My current preferred method is the night-night method, but I am considering other alternatives as a backup, and working on another more obscure method that will hopefully not result in my body being found.

Failure is not an option for me.

 

[TAW122]

I am not currently actively suicidal, at least since early March. However, if I were to commit suicide in the future, given that the circumstances are right and things push me to go through, then I would wait for a time where people are least expecting me to ctb, do my best to avoid all red flags, and then write my notes. After everything is sorted and straightened out, then I'll wait for an opening (where people aren't home) and then quietly put my plan into action.

For example (hypothetical scenario), if I hadn't recovered in early March (meaning that if I didn't succeed in getting what I'm seeking after), then I'd spent the remainder of my time on Earth (less than 90 days) mustering the courage to ctb, tying loose ends (getting my stuff in order and stuff, pre-ctb rituals, and what not), writing my notes and letters, and then just generally living normally (as to not set off any red flags) until time draws near. Then when the time draws close, send my letters and notes (delayed of course), drink and eat for the last time, then on the very date, ready my method (the firearm - 12ga shotgun) and then relax and die (hoping the SI doesn't fuck me over).

As for now, I'm just passively suicidal, not actively thinking about ending it, but I do fantasize about how I'd end it via a firearm, where I'd be, the reactions of the people afterwards and their shock and horror especially how I've been really discreet (even to this day, nobody (not even my family) knows that I own a firearm) about ctb and even my method.

 

[Roadkill]

My plan is to first take SN or Sodium Azide, then quickly(within seconds) shoot myself in the head... this should add extra insurance to make sure that I won't survive..but with my luck somehow I will still survive and end up living as a brain damaged vegetable

 

[bluesleep]

I have been suicidal for a couple of years though I also had the idea back when I was a teen.

I still don't know if I'm going to do it. I've tried cutting and ODs and failed.

I'm thinking of hanging myself or ODing but for what I read it takes really high ammounts of medication to do it successfully. I wish I could just take something and go to sleep forever, without pain or fear.

 

[FauxEmotions]

I don't really consider myself suicidal in the traditional sense, but I made the choice to end my life about 10 years ago. I've just always wanted to go on my terms.

The time to do so is fast approaching, most likely next month, although I may be able to stretch that to June.

My current preferred method is the night-night method, but I am considering other alternatives as a backup, and working on another more obscure method that will hopefully not result in my body being found.

Failure is not an option for me.

This sounds like me! Except I'll say for me (hindsight is 20/20 of course) but I've only come to terms with wanting to end my life a since about 4 years ago but had the feelings/thoughts long. Up until recently I never reflected on my life or gave anything much thought just existing in between sleep.

I will go out with partial hanging. It should feel just like going to sleep, I've been practicing for awhile and got it down to no pain even after practice runs. (It would hurt for a bit after practicing for awhile)

 

[DrownedOctopus]

I plan to hang or shoot myself, though leaning towards a gun.
I debated between both since my most recent failed attempt, and I'm just afraid of fucking up again.
A gun seems the least likely for me to mess up, even in the likely event I do it on impulse again.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

My plan is to first take SN or Sodium Azide, then quickly(within seconds) shoot myself in the head... this should add extra insurance to make sure that I won't survive..but with my luck somehow I will still survive and end up living as a brain damaged vegetable

Tbh if u gonna go with these..stick with SN. It doesmt leave too much lasting damage as a gunshot would!

 

[aspx]

I've been thinking about suicide for about 4 years now.
The "plan" is simple: if someone offers me a chance do die, I'll take it. The most common example is if someone tries to rob me with some weapon, I'd fight back and get killed (hopefully). I think this is the best method, since it won't leave my family sad because of a suicide and there's no need to make plans and arrange anything. Also, it's just like living everyday as your last day on Earth, so do what you want. The downside of it is that this can take a lot of time and it's not certain.
Other than this, maybe carotid compression if things go south.

 

[Cookiedough8956]

Been sucidal for 11 yrs. Tired of it.
And im planning SN
I wanna go end of April.. And if things fall apart
Def May

 

[BandAddict]

I've been suicidal since age 7, (I'm 19 now.) I've attempted maybe 4-5 times in the last 3 years. Pills are usually what I go for, in the slight privacy of my bedroom. I just don't want to put my mom through it again, but I'm also tired of waiting for something that's never going to happen... Right now I'm trying to pick a new date since December didn't work out.

 

[ZixivaldYrxes]

I've had a plan worked out for awhile, just worried about executing it. Not sure if I really want to die or if it's just some obsessive conclusion that I've come to. I haven't felt actually depressed in years, but I'm still very uncomfortable somehow. It felt like "the right thing to do" a couple of years ago but I held back, and now I'm more hesitant, and I regret not doing it then when I had fewer doubts.

 

[lizinha]

Yes. if i push it back it'll be eat at me even more
my plan is to hang myself and act on it impulsively before my survival instincts start to kick in. just waiting for the opportunity to be home alone, then i should be set.

 

[Olach]

I have been suicidal for 3 years. My last attempt was with paracetamol OD. I was so stupid then.
The first attempt was with partial hanging my SI kicked me out.
This time I'll do partial hanging combined with benzos. The only thing to figure out is how much it would take to pass out after taking them.

 

[FTL.Wanderer]

Dreaming about the Sarco Machine. I've scrimped and saved enough to be able to travel anywhere in the world very quickly and pay a reasonable fee for any clinic that will do the work for me. I can leave in hours. If Sarco isn't developed sufficiently and available enough soon (year or so), then short shotgun in the woods in the morning. I have no relatives, no friends, no obligations I care about. I don't give a f*k about my remains.

 

[Volomori83]

I plan on hanging myself, full suspension.

I hope to be dead within the next week or so, although SI May force an extension to that until I figure out how to push past it. I've had suicidal thoughts since age 9, they became more tangible at age 19. I started to seriously plan for death about 3 years ago. I'm 35 now.

 

[iix.em]

Since the age of 12 I believe, some things happened and tbh over time my mind has just manifested itself on it's own terms in a very dark way to which I am almost at peak of suppressing, unable to seek proper help for specific reasons but I have one thing keeping me from ending it right now. Although I've properly planned killing myself since I was 14. (19 now almost 20)

If this doesn't work out then yes, most definitely. I'm at my last hope and have attempted once before.

Unsure of method, I want a peaceful and 100% method to end my madness when all does fail but I don't exactly know just how the best way to do it is without leaving a mess or even worse surviving. But most likely alone and far away from everyone somewhere I've always wanted to be, at night in peaceful nature away from humanity.

 

[JohnUK]

Been suicidal since about 20 years old . 32 now

Still deciding on jumping CO or transport hit

My target was 29th March to end of april but that will be most likely extended

 

[r0_]

been depressed since my late teens. suicidal prob since my late 20s when i started realizing how i knowingly let life pass me by while at the same time not wanting to be part of 'life' to begin with.

already tried to do it twice and failed. my research is thorough now, ruling out external factors (basically nosey people) is key.

method: CO. already found a nice airbnb in my favorite town that says on the website they dont have CO detectors (going to check first, just staying a night or two). then i need to make sure the owner won't bother me for 24 hours, but im sure i can arrange that. also smoke from the chimney starter must not draw attention, if i begin when its dark outside it prob wont. the place has several small bathrooms so yeah this will work.

 

[J F]

How long have you been suicidal?

Are you really doing it?

Method? At what time and where?

Personally I've been wanting to die for the last 6-7 years, but the last year has made me 100% sure about what I want... To have peace. Thinking partial hanging, not sure when or where, but hopefully soon. Can't stand this loneliness any more.

I tried a few months back but was found before it worked. The paramedics brought me back to life. Been pissed and depressed ever since. This time I won't fail. Will happen very soon. Looking forward to leaving this world.

 

[tomz323]

I was thinking a running jump off a cliff...I too am afraid of turning myself into a vegetable.

 

[iix.em]

I tried a few months back but was found before it worked. The paramedics brought me back to life. Been pissed and depressed ever since. This time I won't fail. Will happen very soon. Looking forward to leaving this world.

i hope you find peace

 

[suicideofpeace]

my plan is getting N and die peacefully

 

[J F]

I tried a few months back but was found before it worked. The paramedics brought me back to life. Been pissed and depressed ever since. This time I won't fail. Will happen very soon. Looking forward to leaving this world.

Since 2013. Tried drowning in the Pacific Ocean with rocks in my pocket. Didn't work. You think? Next tried starvation. Nope. Next water intoxication. Nope. Then I tried Propranolol/bento/antiemetic mix. Planned it to a science. Was working till was found and brought back to life. This was in 2018. Been stockpiling Propranolol and verapamil ever since. Throw in some benzos and a strong prescription anti-emetic and I am good to go. Next couple of weeks. Actual place time and date still in the process of solidifying. Can't wait. Sick of this shitty life.

 

[Marawa]

I have been suicidal for 3 years. My last attempt was with paracetamol OD. I was so stupid then.
The first attempt was with partial hanging my SI kicked me out.
This time I'll do partial hanging combined with benzos. The only thing to figure out is how much it would take to pass out after taking them.

This my current working plan too. I find benzo ease the SI instinct but at 2mgs there was still an edge then fell asleep. woke up still feeling numb but need more now & will have to get in the noose right away next time. I'm using Xanax & have a tolerance too. Wish I could add alcohol.