Anarchy
Invisible anarchist
- Jul 9, 2018
- 383
The first hours it feels really good; you feel invincible, you feel good with yourself, you don't care about anything, basically you feel more free. But after a certain amount of hours you decay, each time more depressed and tired and I feel some nausea too. You slowly realize the shit you really are and you have no reason for being so happy, you don't know why you acted like you did; in rare ocasions, you overthink your life or the life itself and make philosophical conclusions... the next day you feel a really strong pain if you are not used to drink. That headache disables you and will hurt as hell, as stabbing your head but this can be overrided with a lot of training; I don't recommend it anyway.
Justanotherconsumer
Paragon
- Jul 9, 2018
- 974
A beer buzz is much better in my opinion.
GloryGloryGlory
New Member
- Mar 20, 2018
- 3
Yes, so much this. I never understood how people gained emotional comfort by drinking/drug usage. It just makes me so introspective and unable to put on my carefully curated facade. Bleh to all of it, lol.
RaptorHavx
Drowning in loneliness...
- Aug 15, 2018
- 120
Firstly it feels warm and relaxing. Then you become dizzy, you feel more self confident than usual. After that you start losing rationality and do stupid things. Personally I was telling myself some stories and bursting with laugh because "I see the wall" lol, good for a moment but later it feels worse than before. I was drunk 5 times in my entire life .
At first it makes me feel good - relaxed and cozy, so I drink some more and end up crying and doing stupid shit like stalking my crush on facebook which only makes me even more depressed.
The last time I got drunk I threw up and passed out, I don't even remember what was going on.
2/10, I don't recommend.
The last time I got drunk I threw up and passed out, I don't even remember what was going on.
2/10, I don't recommend.
Brokenanddeadinside
Arcanist
- Aug 8, 2018
- 403
It really depends for me sometimes I am a happy drunk and can go dancing and feel great. Other times it can be the complete opposite ive on a couple occasions had a breakdown for some unknown reason including breaking down in a club for absolutely no reason which was embarrassing.
Dead_Inside
Wizard
- Jul 2, 2018
- 622
Well .... for an alcoholic like myself. It's more like having some soda. Your favorite soda, when you have been craving it. Then it hits and you feel a little more ok with your shit self and your shit life.
Then .... you keep going. And slowly you just hate yourself and this disgusting thing you do to yourself.
And you keep drinking because maybe if you just keep trying you will just be numb. But you just get tried eventually. But hey the shakes stopped. And maybe this will kill you soon enough. Then you just pass out in depression and self hatred next to the poison that won't give you relief one way or the other.
Then .... you keep going. And slowly you just hate yourself and this disgusting thing you do to yourself.
And you keep drinking because maybe if you just keep trying you will just be numb. But you just get tried eventually. But hey the shakes stopped. And maybe this will kill you soon enough. Then you just pass out in depression and self hatred next to the poison that won't give you relief one way or the other.
Dead_Inside
Wizard
- Jul 2, 2018
- 622
WorthlessGirl
Member
- Aug 15, 2018
- 40
I'm a depressive drunk, I cry a lot and talk about killing myself. Sometimes I blackout, I woke up in a overflowing bathtub at 4 in the morning last time that happened. I don't even remember going in there, I only remember crying and trying to talk to my cats.
I was black out drunk and don't remember anything. But the hangover was goddamn awful.
Everytime I get drunk there's a first phase when I'm just silly and funny because friends/other people are with me (maybe even them half/drunk).
After about 1 hour I always start "trying to escape". Whenever I am I want to go somewhere else, I start to panic and I say whatever excuse passes in my mind to try and be alone. When I'm alone I feel like a twinge in my stomach and my mind, and I know it's not alcohol, it's what I really feel when I don't fake being fine. Then I start crying and I try to not let anybody see me
After about 1 hour I always start "trying to escape". Whenever I am I want to go somewhere else, I start to panic and I say whatever excuse passes in my mind to try and be alone. When I'm alone I feel like a twinge in my stomach and my mind, and I know it's not alcohol, it's what I really feel when I don't fake being fine. Then I start crying and I try to not let anybody see me
Yeah this. The booze always turns on you. It's great when you're young but as you age.. eventually your old friend betrays you.
Sidestep
Student
- Aug 15, 2018
- 128
Usually I'm the happy drunk: dancing like an idiot, laughing hysterically at everything, sending "I LOVE UUUUU <3" messages to my friends, etc. Though really whenever I'm drunk I mainly just chill and watch videos/tv but in a jovial mood. It's quite a change from my more usual reserved, grumpy self. Tbh I like myself a lot more when I'm drunk. I'm not paralyzed by fears and anxieties, I'm more confident to just be myself and probably much more pleasant to be around. But sometimes I become introspective and depressed from drinking which is hardly any fun.
Dead_Inside
Wizard
- Jul 2, 2018
- 622
So true. I want to throw it away too but .... fuck. You end up chasing the dragon with alcohol as bad as any drug.
Tomasnil
Mage
- Apr 24, 2018
- 519
Its diffrent each time... Sometimes i blackout sometimes im happy or sad but non of that matter since i still feel alot better drunk then sober and it helps me sleep even just 4-5 shots is enugh to be able to sleep. I cant remember when i last go to sleep without a single shot under my belt
I don't really like alcohol. To be quite honest I also find strange that many people find beer the most likable drink ever, but let tastes be tastes
cccitrus
i just want death and
- Aug 14, 2018
- 40
i stopped drinking in january
i hate the feeling when you start losing control of your body, thoughts and mouth.
i hate it when i don't know what i'm doing and others notice
i disgust myself and am disgusted by the way boys look at me.
lol that's how i feel whenever i'm "drunk"
i hate the feeling when you start losing control of your body, thoughts and mouth.
i hate it when i don't know what i'm doing and others notice
i disgust myself and am disgusted by the way boys look at me.
lol that's how i feel whenever i'm "drunk"
uxorious
Member
- Aug 17, 2018
- 58
I rely on drink just to get through a full day, seems like ages since I had a weekend without it
why
discontinue me
- Aug 12, 2018
- 5
I drunk 7 or 8 shots I can't remember. You will feel a little dizzy and lose contact with your conscience (you stop caring about stuff, become less inhibited).
Being happy and normal. Then being 10 foot tall and bulletproof. Passing out and waking up in a random place. Not remembering how you got home. Vomiting and feeling like crap for the rest of the day. Saying you'll never do it again. Doing it again. Spending my whole life doing it and ending up seriously ill with no life.
Alcohol is fun. But it WILL destroy your life if you rely on it. Best to stay away from it entirely.
Alcohol is fun. But it WILL destroy your life if you rely on it. Best to stay away from it entirely.
Brokenanddeadinside
Arcanist
- Aug 8, 2018
- 403
For me it depends I can feel great and sociable or I can have a mental breakdown or I become self destructive and start drinking and mixing with pills and blackout and puke. I also can be a lot more impulsive.
FairyAlys
Member
- Aug 7, 2018
- 57
I stopped drinking because it makes my depression, sadness and loneliness even worse.
I've got some lovely Polish vodka for my last day.
I've got some lovely Polish vodka for my last day.
StarDust
Mage
- Aug 21, 2018
- 508
I agree it is warm, cozy and relaxing, then the head spins start...eventually you slur your words everything becomes odd...you stumble, fall down, run into things. I can become a chatterbox, talking about anything and everything. You let your guard down, sometimes you get super emotional and cry everywhere. You do things you would never do sober. Then normally you fall asleep or pass-out/blackout, wake up feeling horrid...headache, dry mouth (sometimes a sore throat) sick stomach (sometimes from both ends) you think...ohhhh why did I do that? Some people swell up from drinking, you can get the shakes, your heart feels all over the place....it is not fun. (let me point out that I have been drinking for some time and heavily so some of my symptoms may be worse than others)
Also...you are likely to drunk text, email, or call people and say some really stupid things.
I drove around Ireland once many years ago. Stopped each night at pub and had many pints. The Irish are great, the friendliest people in the world! All you have to do is stand your round, talk a bit and you are practically accepted into the family wherever you go. All thanks to beer. I felt like crap every morning though.
BaconCheeseburger
Comfort-eating
- Aug 4, 2018
- 693
I always drink when I'm out with friends as it helps me to relax.
None of my family drink so they look down on me when I do.
None of my family drink so they look down on me when I do.
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