Discussion What's your current method of choice?

[charaunderground]

First off, sorry if this post comes off weird. I typed the whole thing, left the tab, came back and it was Gone. So I have to retype the whole thing since I guess the draft didn't save either...

What's your guys' current / preferred method? My current plan is a mix of night-night and/or mass amounts of CO2 (I know CO2 is distressing, but high concentrations will make you pass out quickly and making it doesn't require anything "suspicious" or shady like SN or a gun). Gun is only a backup for a few reasons:

1) Might come off as super neurotic during a background check. Don't like talking to people and usually come off as overly polite / nervous in public, especially with strangers, especially during things like background checks. I was super anxious when I had a bg check for work, and it was the most surface level, low risk thing ever. Worried I'll somehow set off some sixth sense red flag detector for the employee and have issues.

2) My parents are surprisingly anti guns for people who live in a very red state. Not against other people having them, but they really don't want guns in/near the house, and I think if I bought a gun and they found it before it CTB'd it would cause Major issues (read: being kicked out immediately).

3) Unfortunately, I can't exactly test shooting myself to "make sure" it'll work. I can with either method I have. Yes, those can still have complications of course, but I prefer having something I can "try out" before doing it.

4) Citric acid, baking soda, ligatures, rope, etc are "normal" things to have and won't put me at odd with my parents or cause issue if they're found or intercepted in the mail.

Guns are still my first backup, along with SN as a runner up, but that's my ideal current plan for those reasons. I still think the gun would be more lethal for sure (and, because Red State, arguably more Dramatic and definitely more lethal) but can't easily hide/get/keep one for now without risk til' I move out.
Also — sorry if my frequent posting is some sort of SaSu social faux pas! I (obviously, I think) never get to talk about anything even remotely related to suicide IRL, so...

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

SN just waiting for it to arrive. It looks like it's stuck at my cities distribution center. As soon as I get it, I'll be gone within a day or two.

 

[TheHolySword]

Definitely SN. Relatively peaceful, easy, effective, one of the least distressing ways to be found imo. Not too expensive compared to some of the other methods. It's the only method that has made me feel calm about CTBing.

 

[Salkak]

I am thinking of SN. It sounds relatively peaceful compared to other methods. Cheap and I get to die in my bed

 

[charaunderground]

SN just waiting for it to arrive. It looks like it's stuck at my cities distribution center. As soon as I get it, I'll be gone within a day or two.

Definitely SN. Relatively peaceful, easy, effective, one of the least distressing ways to be found imo. Not too expensive compared to some of the other methods. It's the only method that has made me feel calm about CTBing.

I am thinking of SN. It sounds relatively peaceful compared to other methods. Cheap and I get to die in my bed

I'd like SN, but I live at home and my dad recently has been really weird and scrutinized any package I receive, no matter how innocuous. Something clearly "foreign", especially if it either lists SN or even just like "cement mixer" or whatever DMC usually puts, would be seen as incredibly suspicious and probably have him open it to snoop.

() If night night / CO2 fail I'll either have to risk a gun or set up a PO box for SN.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

Think I'm mainly going to partial hang in my backyard. Seems like the simplest for materials needed- just need to work on my plan

 

[TragedyBornCrimson]

I'd like SN, but I live at home and my dad recently has been really weird and scrutinized any package I receive, no matter how innocuous. Something clearly "foreign", especially if it either lists SN or even just like "cement mixer" or whatever DMC usually puts, would be seen as incredibly suspicious and probably have him open it to snoop.

() If night night / CO2 fail I'll either have to risk a gun or set up a PO box for SN.

I live with family as well, my plan is to get my package early i at the post office for our area in the morning before it is collected for delivery by the postman.

 

[VoidBlessed]

Hanging for me. Simple, very lethal, and probably my best option. I don't think I could keep SN down long enough and N/opiates/guns just aren't realistic.

 

[TopChicken]

Opiates seems like the best option for me. Second would be a nitrogen or helium exit bag/mask

 

[unknown_xav]

SN, I already have it but I'm so anxious and I plan everyday but can't go through. I don't have meto, and probably won't have access so I have to rely on a lower but still high probability of success than those with access. I think my mind has some SI in the works like I randomly feel I should eat which breaks my fast during a plan, or I feel guilt or start thinking about what people would say etc. which delays every plan I have. I live alone and that's a plus, but also fear neighbours might hear or my loved ones might freak out if I don't respond for while and they'll have me locked up this time.

 

[ScaredOfMachines]

I'm going with SN too. My main issue with any other method is SI. I managed to get a hold of a gun once when back when I was fourteen, but but SI got a hold of me and I somehow ended up firing it into the ceiling instead of my skull, so even that's not immune.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't have a method. There isn't any method that I can access

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd personally wish for a painless poison that gives me a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep, all I hope and wish for is to never wake again, I wish I could access Nembutal so I can finally find peace from the cruel and futile burden of existence that I never would have chose but of course all the suffering just continues instead. It always feels so horrible and dreadful how painless death is denied for me as all I see as desirable is permanently ceasing to exist, I'd never wish to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just to die in agony from old age.

 

[TimetoGo!]

Hanging for me. Simple, very lethal, and probably my best option. I don't think I could keep SN down long enough and N/opiates/guns just aren't realistic.

Hanging is not simple, trust me!

 

[moon_princessx]

Hanging is not simple, trust me!

How so? That's my go-to method for now

 

[VoidBlessed]

Hanging is not simple, trust me!

I'm finding that out now! I guess what I mean is mechanically simple - all it takes is an anchor point, a good knot, and a whole lot of luck to hit your carotids right.

 

[NegevChina]

Currently CO2 Poisoning is my best option. For me its easy to source, lethal within few seconds of possible discomfort, no complicated mechanisms.
Only alternative I have is jumping.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

Nitrogen exit bag.

 

[elletaber45]

I want to cbt with helium but unfortunately it's hard to get unless you're a commercial business in Canada. The right percentage that would actually end things, anyways.

 

[mattoman]

I might get hate for this, but anyways. What I find the most reliable is rail suicide. I know it will traumatize others, but it's honestly the cheapest and most efficient way to do it.

 

[Forveleth]

Aiming for partial. Have some sodium azide stashed but the lack of documentation on it (compared to SN) is making me hesitate.

 

[diy-event]

hanging full suspension - its fast and it kills - all that I need in a method

 

[JoysoftheEmptiness]

Hanging. 1 metre drop should do it. Seen so many pictures on various gore sites while I researched it.

I might get hate for this, but anyways. What I find the most reliable is rail suicide. I know it will traumatize others, but it's honestly the cheapest and most efficient way to do it.

I don't hate you for posting that, none of us should, our choice is our choice, we must respect that. But I'd worry about the people who either witness that, or have to clean up afterwards, which is why I prefer hanging.

How so? That's my go-to method for now

Mine as well!

 

[Opera]

Personally I might go with SN or a gun. I haven't ordered anything yet since I still live with parents. I plan getting one or the other once I move out and I can plan my CTB accordingly

 

[Monad]

Would have to say Shotgun or SN. If I wanted to do it very badly, right this second, probably hanging...

 

[divinemistress36]

SN if I ever get the courage

 

[yowai]

I refuse to go without a good high right before, so something that'll give me euphoria first, then doze off and stop breathing during sleep

 

[S1_ckJoe]

partial hanging with belt. It's the only thing I can afford and the closest option I have in case everything goes to hell.

 

[curiouscvnt]

potassium cyanide (>1 g, since LD50 in several mammals is <10 mg/kg body wt, added to drinking water, down the hatch)
not to be confused with cyanates or ferricyanides

 

[Tig]

CO for me, cheap, effective, painless with pill backup, Kolopin, Cyclobenzaprine and blood pressure medication.
Tests run in a small room, plastic sheeting to make it airtight, a meter to gauge CO level builds up enough to be lethal in an hour,
And the pill cocktail for sleeping soundly till it happens.