Mine I suppose is poverty more than anything else. You can solve a lot if u have enough money. But not having enough is stressfull. Basically can't do shit without it lol! I mean if u figured out how to go off grid and grow your own stuff and have animals u might be alright with not much money. For other people it's like have fun as inflation gets worse lol!
Redt2go
flower child
- Jan 5, 2019
- 1,643
Being totally honest my parents/ co-workers finding out I'm going to ctb... It'll just prolong things... It's going to happen eventually
Committing suicide & finding out Hell or the afterlife is me stuck with only the most cruel people I known in real life
Alecsa
Potater
- Jan 21, 2019
- 94
I once had a bogart change into a dementor... then again, I'm just scared of being seen through like glass.
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Jc40
Specialist
- Mar 3, 2019
- 354
Fear of the unknown. That includes dying and living.
I fear being inadequate morally and in my capabilities, nothing scares me more then believing i could've done better and didn't. I already feel this way but it grows with every second that passes by and i'll be crushed by it in decade. I've never felt good enough and no matter what i do i know ill never be good enough in my own eyes.
Seriously sincere and potent with that last sentence. Even if everything worked out it'll never be enough to change how we see or think of ourselves.
Amber1974
Student
- Dec 9, 2018
- 147
Mr. Hang Man
Just hanging around
- Mar 11, 2019
- 69
TheGoodGuy
Visionary
- Aug 27, 2018
- 2,999
That I will turn 25 next month so I really wanna ctb before that because it scares the shit out of me thinking I am this old, I want to be a 9 year old kid again so this is very old for me I might as well be 50
I fear everything : life & death. Any change in my life. The future. Tomorrow. People. Going to the street. Rejection. Find a work. Loosing it. Find a women. Loosing the loved one. Loosing my parents. Loosing my cats. Loosing my brother. I would like to die before any of them. To ctb.
I honestly never thought id make it to 18, now i turn 26 next month and hope to ctb before then...
My biggest fear right now is being scared too ctb, and living a life of misery
TheGoodGuy
Visionary
- Aug 27, 2018
- 2,999
Since I was 15 I always said to my friends around me (Goth/Emo friends who were also depressed) that I would never live to be 20 years old I still remember how surreal it felt when I turned 20 and now almost 25.
3cookies
Member
- Jan 28, 2019
- 47
This is utterly terrifying. People are the real monsters
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I really hope i succeed ctb, I don't want to live this life anymore. I didn't asked to be born in the first place, this shit happened without my consent!
The thought of me continuing to live scares me the hell out. I want to be dead, buried and forgotten now... NOW!
The thought of me continuing to live scares me the hell out. I want to be dead, buried and forgotten now... NOW!
Nihil
Student
- Mar 4, 2019
- 111
Surviving another suicide attempt and either being involuntarily committed to a mental institution for who knows how long, or becoming a paralyzed vegetable for life where I'd have to endure several more decades of being trapped in this body while being unable to do anything, such as no longer having the ability to take my own life. It's exactly those fears that force me to continue living, at least for now.
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Damn, there's that, I completely overlooked it. Yeah that would be one of the worse thing ever, especially when your folks would do anything to keep you alive. I know mine would.
FTL.Wanderer
Enlightened
- May 31, 2018
- 1,782
Being imprisoned. From what I hear, it's really hard to commit suicide in prison. And unlike an involuntary commitment, prison sentences can be really long for questionable "crimes," like saying/writing the wrong thing (so much for freedom of speech). The only thing keeping me somewhat functional is knowing I can get out when I'm desperate enough.
Yeah, me too. I don't think often enough about the possibility of being a vegetable...
Yeah, me too. I don't think often enough about the possibility of being a vegetable...
deathbycakes
Member
- Sep 14, 2018
- 97
loosing another close person in my life. i really wish to go before any of them do
Help_Me
Gene pool mistake
- Oct 21, 2018
- 516
I fear of continue living, knowing there is no place for me in this world, struggling every day e.t c.
You're so correct. It's like we are stuck in the worst place that life had to offer. It amazes me how things can turn so bad.
My most fear is, that the dying process could be painful.
My biggest fear is what will happen in the next few days. I've been so tired of it all, that I've decided that depending on the news I get for something particular to my health and career (which are interconnected), then I will take my life. I've prepared everything, and my friends and family have no idea. If things turn for the worst, I cannot go on this way. But I still fear that I will do it wrong, or I will have forgotten something important for my loved ones. I also fear that if I do it wrong, that I will not die, so I'm looking into 'Do Not Resuscitate' options. It's just terrifying to think that if I get the wrong news, that it will all be over, but I know that things will only get worse if I made the mistake of continuing to live.
DepressionsAHo
Heaven gained a new ho
- Feb 15, 2019
- 831
there's a lot but one in particular is failing my suicide attempt
Rex2019
Can't wait for the summer
- Feb 23, 2019
- 128
That I'll live a long life.
Every day, I read in the news how someone got murdered or was killed in an accident just closeby. But it's never fucking me.
Every day, I read in the news how someone got murdered or was killed in an accident just closeby. But it's never fucking me.
AhG
La vie est tout sauf un rêve
- Jan 24, 2019
- 313
