kindawannacrylol
Student
- Jan 13, 2021
- 142
I'm a lesbian, I'm not attracted to guys at all, i have A LOT of internalised homophobia and I've tried to reverse my homosexuality but its never worked, because it's not really a thing that can be reversed. I decided to meet up with one of my guy friends from high school a few months ago and we had a good time. Though a few weeks ago it was starting to become obvious that he liked me as more than a friend. He doesnt know I'm a lesbian, it's not really a thing I tell a lot of people. And we met up the other day, he came over to my flat and started to initiate sex, and for some reason i let him. I have no idea why, I have no attraction to men, physically or romantically but I said yes to him. We had sex and physically it felt good but I felt so disgusting and icky inside and now I just feel so empty, I still know I'm a lesbian but I want to do it again. I don't understand why I have such an urge to do something that makes me feel so terrible, but I do and i think i will.
