InterstateFlowers
Experienced
- Apr 16, 2020
- 236
Depression and loneliness is terrible and I wouldn't wish this fate with anyone. I love being friendly and kind because I don't wanna hurt anyone but I don't know how ask about hanging out with people. I have no friends and even though people are nice to me, I feel like society wants me to stay 5 feet away from me. So I'm always alone.
I went to a family gathering party during New Year's because I had to or else my dad would look bad and I love him a lot so I ended up going. I have cousins my age and everyone was way more successful than me and it just got into my head that I was a failure and and my older aunts and uncles were teasing me for playing video games at my age so I told everyone I felt a little sick and went to the guest room. I stayed there the whole time. The only one who cared to check up on me from time to time was my dad. I only went down to get food and drinks. Ended up celebrating New Year's with my animal crossing town on new leaf and whispered "happy new year's" to myself with it hit 12:00.
I also played pokemon on my birthday and cried because a pokemon game was the only thing to care to wish me happy birthday besides my family. I'm pathetic. :(
I went to a family gathering party during New Year's because I had to or else my dad would look bad and I love him a lot so I ended up going. I have cousins my age and everyone was way more successful than me and it just got into my head that I was a failure and and my older aunts and uncles were teasing me for playing video games at my age so I told everyone I felt a little sick and went to the guest room. I stayed there the whole time. The only one who cared to check up on me from time to time was my dad. I only went down to get food and drinks. Ended up celebrating New Year's with my animal crossing town on new leaf and whispered "happy new year's" to myself with it hit 12:00.
I also played pokemon on my birthday and cried because a pokemon game was the only thing to care to wish me happy birthday besides my family. I'm pathetic. :(