I do not get lonely, I would prefer to be alone than be around people, overall I cannot stand people and I need to be on my own. However there is an emptiness that I feel at all times that nothing can ever fill. I know I am not meant for this world and I do not belong here. I try to distract myself, but all I am doing is waiting around for sleep. Nothing helps me or makes me feel better. Nothing would take away the pain of living. Death is the only thing that would ever end my suffering.