Zegers
Enlightened
- Dec 15, 2021
- 1,761
I used to be slightly hope, thinking "things will get better" and in some way it is, have any more money than before when was broke but for about 4 years now I feel more empty, lonelier, anxious, than ever, years ago I used to get excited about travelling, meeting new people but now... it's like... I don't care.
Sometimes I think about reborn in a "top version" of me, fully healthy, well-built and happy, with a good family and an optimistic life but even with that... I dont feel like it.
This earth seems so... meaningless.
I had this void for some years before, but now it's in full force and i can't turn it off. Feels like hell. More i fight it more i sink and the worse it gets... depressed and struggled to get out of bed, feeling anxious most of day and disabled, I try to do small things to try to feel better.
- I went gym - got injured - now try to set up a mini-gym in my room
- I went therapy - taking antidepressants (since 2009)
- Trying to establish a diet
- Researching to improve mood and taking kratom to reduce loneliness
- Researching Psilocybin/cbd/adderall-similars for mood problems
- Looking to join volunteering
- Go out to take a walk sometimes
you feel that things are getting worse/better somehow?
What you do to improve your mood?
Sometimes I think about reborn in a "top version" of me, fully healthy, well-built and happy, with a good family and an optimistic life but even with that... I dont feel like it.
This earth seems so... meaningless.
I had this void for some years before, but now it's in full force and i can't turn it off. Feels like hell. More i fight it more i sink and the worse it gets... depressed and struggled to get out of bed, feeling anxious most of day and disabled, I try to do small things to try to feel better.
- I went gym - got injured - now try to set up a mini-gym in my room
- I went therapy - taking antidepressants (since 2009)
- Trying to establish a diet
- Researching to improve mood and taking kratom to reduce loneliness
- Researching Psilocybin/cbd/adderall-similars for mood problems
- Looking to join volunteering
- Go out to take a walk sometimes
you feel that things are getting worse/better somehow?
What you do to improve your mood?