Discussion What would your life look like if things were different?

[tieiwi]

If you weren't suicidal and were genuinely happy, what would your life look like? Are there things about your everyday life that would change? Would you go for that one thing you were always thinking about? Would you start that new job or hobby? I would probably get my degree then move somewhere beautiful by the ocean.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, I believe I will be suicidal no matter what happened. Nothing would ever make me want to live. I want nothing to do with life, I just want non existence. Life itself disgusts me and I do not want to live in a world where there is so much suffering. I do not believe that such a thing as happiness exists, but even if someone is genuinely happy, I believe they must be delusional.

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Guess I'd stop being a NEET and then be able to move out of my parents house after saving for twenty years. After that I might get my first gf via online dating at the age of 43. Suppose I'd also genuinely enjoy gaming and jacking off again. Idk, would rather end it even in this case, feels so pathetic.

 

[uselesswaste]

I was suicidal (obviously I'm still suicidal) and thought I could never be good at studies. Everyone around me agreed with my statement, and suggested a useless degree.

If I was confident in me, I would have been a vet.

 

[houseofleaves]

If things were different and I had more talent (you can't catch up with more talented people only by working, believe me), I would be so brilliant. I would be giving concerts, playing with orchestras, living life with constant feeling of joy and inspiration. Oh, it would be so nice. But it isn't.

 

[Mixo]

I can partially estimate how different my life would have been if I had made a few early choices differently. My financial problems likely started back in college, picking the wrong major. I should have just gone in the direction I was good at, rather than listening to discouraging words from family. If I had done that, perhaps I would have landed some better, higher paying jobs.

If I could go back even earlier than college and make the childhood abuse go away, I most certainly would have ended up a more stable and successful person overall. If I had a better sense of security within myself earlier on, the sky would have been the limit with me because I was intelligent but I was always struggling with confidence, depression, and chronically low self-worth. Without such mental health issues, professional and financial success would have been likely. And at the very least, more stable, functional relationships where I could have trusted people more. Sadly, this is not the case now. I have absolutely nothing to show for my time on earth and am a living failure.

 

[tieiwi]

I was suicidal (obviously I'm still suicidal) and thought I could never be good at studies. Everyone around me agreed with my statement, and suggested a useless degree.

If I was confident in me, I would have been a vet.

I wanted to be a vet when I was younger! I remember wanting to work with zoo animals. I always thought it'd be cool to have penguins and elephants as patients. I'm sorry about whatever hurtful things others have said. Please know that I'm confident in you and whatever you decide to do :)

 

[lostautist]

My bad life choices made for good reasons have lead me here. I was not prepared for what had happened and I do not see a way out. I have no support.

 

[jimmy7754]

I tried

 

[Superdeterminist]

It's really hard to untangle suicidality from my life, it's really a part of it. So really the question is kind of like asking "how would things be different, if things were different?" Who knows, but I hope better than this disappointment.

 

[Ligottian]

There are too many butterfly effects in life to honestly answer your question. But if I had to...

Financial independence
Having found a partner who I passionately loved and who in turn felt the same about me. And who shared my views on certain critical issues.
The two of us dying together.

What a fantasy!