Discussion What would you think of while dying?

[zekeyaeger]

Depending on your method of CTB, there maybe some time before you take the plunge and actually die. What do you want to be on your mind before death?

 

[samu]

Mahler 6

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I think it'd be best if there was nothing in my mind but peace and peaceful drifting away.

 

[Chrysalis]

Death while in the midst of a dream or daydream. I would like to believe that my connection to this reality would be severed, so that I can then remain within that world, my home, forever. Of course, that's probably nonsense, but at least fantasy could be a source of comfort in my final moments, as it has always been.

 

[antony]

I feel privileged in a way to have the financial means to have access to N but I think I will be thinking about the dark and empty future that lies ahead. My problems are physical and I don't want to endure decades of suffering, even though deep down I want to continue living.

 

[lavenderlilylies]

I'll still be debating the existence of god

 

[CogitoMori]

The only person that ever made me feel cared for. If I get to be a ghost I want to go see him

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

I'll be thinking "i finally did it, my one rational goal my suicide. I solved all my problems forever . i win ".

Why do i have to live or have to want to live another minute? There is no objective reason. Why do have to work 15 hours per day a job chores to do lists for no objective reason only to exist under threat of extreme torture?

These are not the main reasons i want to kill these monstrous 30 trillion cells i'm in imprisoned in they call a human body, a brain that can suffer unending constant unbearable pain. not all this above are not even the main reasons just general reasons. i won't say anything personal here just general things.

 

[pandorasactor]

My method is hanging. In my past attempts I focused on not messing up and pushing through my SI

 

[Supplyndix]

For me it would be my first girlfriend

 

[ShatteredShards]

Finding relief in ridding myself of this filthy, contaminated vessel.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Probably all those who have died in my family. I'm sure I'm going to be scared though. I don't imagine it's going to be peaceful.

 

[cosmic-realism]

I would just keep hoping and sobbing that there is no reincarnation.No thoughts, only pure mind numbing fear.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

Prior to the point of no return I will hopefully think nothing but act like a robot, a drilled soldier and carry out what I have visualized a million times before. After the point of no return I will hopefully think: "You really did it, you finally found the courage to hang yourself." And not: "Shit, what have you done!" While dying I should be unconscious.

 

[coffeebeany]

My partner and friends. I want my last thoughts to be about them.

 

[s-w]

My girlfriend who just left me and led me to this mess. I need to somehow believe I still have her

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Tbh I think I will just be panicking if I ever managed to do it

 

[Dusk till dawn]

I'll be thinking about how life sucked and whether it was worth it or not, i'm a nycophile so i'm happy with an eternity of darkness and sleep

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd think of how once I'm dead I'll finally be unable to suffer and how this cruel, torturous existence that just caused suffering all for the sake of it will finally no longer be my problem, for me death truly is the only peace, I only hope to never exist ever again. I only see non-existence as desirable and I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer in this existence that I just saw as a terrible mistake in the first place, ceasing to exist would save me from all future suffering in an existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age, I'd never wish for that but rather I just wish for peace instead, I want all to be gone for me.

 

[so_mais_um]

Depending on your method of CTB, there maybe some time before you take the plunge and actually die. What do you want to be on your mind before death?

I have OCD. Maybe an intrusive thought. Fuck this life.

 

[alltoomuch2]

Peace and relief from all my emotional and mental pain
Peace and relief from all my emotional and mental pain

 

[Hana68]

Depending on your method of CTB, there maybe some time before you take the plunge and actually die. What do you want to be on your mind before death?

I'll think of my cousin and a half-hallucination/half-dream I had in a hospital

 

[zxcvb]

That I can finally be at peace

 

[Tired Nacho II]

Depending on your method of CTB, there maybe some time before you take the plunge and actually die. What do you want to be on your mind before death?

Her smile...

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Ideally I'd like to be thinking something along the lines of "fuck you society, despite all of your attempts at trying to get me to live for as long as possible and force me to participate in things I never wanted to do to begin with, you failed to prolong my life. Fuck you, I win and I will no longer be suffering in this horrific existence".

In reality, I'd just be terrified of dying and SI would cause me to regret attempting and instead would make me think that I want to live. Of course this isn't to say that I want to live as I actually don't but rather that the amount of discomfort I'd be going through during the attempt would be immense to where I'd rather do something less discomforting like staying alive. However, I need to die asap as then I'd be preventing future discomforts which I know would be worse than if I were to die now. I wouldn't be going through this if I had the option to die peacefully as then I wouldn't have to go through massive levels of discomfort and pain just to die

 

[Invisible23]

I lost my mom when I was very young, she was an amazing person and I miss her dearly every day so I would definitely try to think about her