Nirrend
The important is not how long you live ...
- Mar 12, 2022
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Hello to all,
I know I tend to repeat myself, but I'm at a complete impasse.
I have everything I need to ctb, I think I'm ready but I'm being held back because I told my girlfriend about my plans.
Even though I know that my method may not be that reliable, I still have the determination to do it.
I don't know if you do but, I'm not in pain (not absolute distress, mostly empty) but I still want to die.
With what's been going on lately, I'm being pushed more and more towards hospitalization. But I don't believe in it and it sounds absurd but I miss the state I was in at the worst of my life, because I had nothing to lose by dying.
I don't understand why I don't do it, why I'm still here.
What would you do in my place? Would you have gone as far as a full hospital treatment?
Or would you have tried to end it all by any means?
Would you wait the end of the hospitalization period to ctb ?
I don't know what to do and I suffer without suffering, I don't understand what is happening to me, it is often very oppressive.
Feeling normal or as if everything was on pause.
I don't have any more dates planned, my plan was cancelled and so I'm without anything at the moment.
Thank you for reading and for your future replies,
I wish you a good evening ❤
I know I tend to repeat myself, but I'm at a complete impasse.
I have everything I need to ctb, I think I'm ready but I'm being held back because I told my girlfriend about my plans.
Even though I know that my method may not be that reliable, I still have the determination to do it.
I don't know if you do but, I'm not in pain (not absolute distress, mostly empty) but I still want to die.
With what's been going on lately, I'm being pushed more and more towards hospitalization. But I don't believe in it and it sounds absurd but I miss the state I was in at the worst of my life, because I had nothing to lose by dying.
I don't understand why I don't do it, why I'm still here.
What would you do in my place? Would you have gone as far as a full hospital treatment?
Or would you have tried to end it all by any means?
Would you wait the end of the hospitalization period to ctb ?
I don't know what to do and I suffer without suffering, I don't understand what is happening to me, it is often very oppressive.
Feeling normal or as if everything was on pause.
I don't have any more dates planned, my plan was cancelled and so I'm without anything at the moment.
Thank you for reading and for your future replies,
I wish you a good evening ❤