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Pointlesslife
I'm feel dead and lifeless already so why live
- Nov 7, 2018
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We all have certain things we desire in life. What are some of yours and what things and changes would make life more bearable for you to live?
Being healthy
This. If the psychological pain and intermittent insanity I get from bipolar stopped there is no chance in hell I would ctb.
Maybe one day I'll find medication that works.
A couple of things spring to mind. Firstly, if my girl would stop playing head fucked games, that would help. In fact if I could just get over her, that in itself would be a massive improvement. You can't love me one day and then not the next. This cycle repeats itself over and over, pull me in, push me away, pull me in... I guess you can't help who you love and even though I know the relationship is toxic, I can't break free.
Happiness and free from the torture of mental illness. Sick of feeling like shit, EVERY. SINGLE. DAY. Again, the cycle repeats, from high, to low, to high, to low...
If I could live a good decent respectable life with dignity and life that was fair and just.
Yeah, I don't necessarily have to live an extravagent life. Just a reasonably good life where I can be happy and have good friends that make me feel good.