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Onomotopoeia
Experienced
- Feb 8, 2019
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Hi,
I am new here and just testing the waters. Thought a discussion would be nice. I'm 36 and no longer have the sharp edges of pain that came with adolescence. Actually, I do not really have a reason to be suicidal and yet always have been. Still, nothing has ever changed my mind and I really could not think of something that would.
For the purpose of attempting to answer the closest thing I could come up with would be a journey to the end that would wake me up. I long ago decided if/when I decide it's time to go I would have an exit fun run. Take whatever cash I had and blow it. Maybe go to some touristy beach spot find a friend and just waste whatever money I had on some drugs and whatever other fun things might be around.
If I could go an such an adventure and it could somehow reignite a spark i'm not sure exists now. Well, it's possible that would change my mind. Unlikely, but possible
I'm not arrogant enough to think i'm unusual in being suicidal without a reason. However I am especially curious if you are like me and do not really have a reason what might change your mind?
All are welcome to answer i'd love to here your ideas!
I am new here and just testing the waters. Thought a discussion would be nice. I'm 36 and no longer have the sharp edges of pain that came with adolescence. Actually, I do not really have a reason to be suicidal and yet always have been. Still, nothing has ever changed my mind and I really could not think of something that would.
For the purpose of attempting to answer the closest thing I could come up with would be a journey to the end that would wake me up. I long ago decided if/when I decide it's time to go I would have an exit fun run. Take whatever cash I had and blow it. Maybe go to some touristy beach spot find a friend and just waste whatever money I had on some drugs and whatever other fun things might be around.
If I could go an such an adventure and it could somehow reignite a spark i'm not sure exists now. Well, it's possible that would change my mind. Unlikely, but possible
I'm not arrogant enough to think i'm unusual in being suicidal without a reason. However I am especially curious if you are like me and do not really have a reason what might change your mind?
All are welcome to answer i'd love to here your ideas!