Discussion What will you be doing on your last day?

[Trashcan]

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[Schopenhauer]

I'll take my N early in the morning. The day before I'll be meditating, at most watching a movie or two.

 

[weedoge]

Crying probably, maybe watching a movie and listening to music and taking a lot of benzos.

 

[Dani Paradox]

I will have my last meal before I begin my fasting. I'm going to pig out on octopus salad and clams. This will likely be the night before. Then I am going to go down memory lane and wallow in my misery. I am going to have my suicide playlist of all the songs that are most important to me. All of my biggest triggers. I have already begun listening to all of my old music, but I will have certain songs picked out for the day. I will spend the day going through old pictures and reminiscing. Chain smoking. And I will do this until I finally get up the nerve to drink the SN. Once it's down, it's down. As soon as the moment is right. As soon as that moment comes. When I am screaming and crying and I get that impulsive urge. That SN will be down in a matter of seconds. Then I will lay on my bed with photos in my hand and staring at them as I wait to lose consciousness.

 

[TheLastTrip]

Wake up, massage, maybe catch a film at the cinema, make sure everything is ready. Spend a lot of time on here (as always, lol). About an hour before start my exit thread here.

Finally when it is about 8pm (I always love the dark nights more than day time) I'll prep my whatsapp messages with no wifi active, activate wifi to push them all through, wipe my phones, wipe my laptop, drink my N and ride the bus until they kick me off :D

That's by myself, with a partner it will be a mix of that plus what they want to do.

 

[jaemus12]

Aww man this is so hard.

I think the day before ctb: lunch will be mcdonalds breakfast. And dinner will be a pizza and wings combo.

Day of ctb: I'm going to go all you can eat sushi for lunch. Eat until I puke.

Go to my final destination around afternoon. Drink till I puke and ctb.

Edit: I just realized what I just posted made next to no sense relating to OP's question. All I talked about is food...

 

[Help_Me]

Trying to get a grip and be fully prepared to ctb

 

[worldexploder]

I have no idea what I am gonna do or when it's gonna happen - but the day I CTB i don't think I'd be able to focus on anything other than the task at hand.

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I can't see myself eating lavishly or enjoying much of anything. I get in these deeply philosophical/melancholic moods that often last for hours and knowing who I am, I think that day will be a bonanza in that department.

I'm not happy about ctb. It's something I've been forced into. I will probably just reflect on life and its unfairness, how shitty and unlucky my life wound up being. I am forever plagued by nostalgia and regret so I can see that being on the menu too.

 

[Rose]

Likely the same thing as ever, I'll probably watch my favourite movie & listen to some of my favourite songs once more before I CTB, though. Either the night before or directly before.

I'd like to experience a lot of things that I haven't been able to experience before I go, but, well... my lack of ability to experience them (or appreciate experiencing them) is part of the reason why I'm catching the bus anyway

 

[weedoge]

I have no idea what I am gonna do or when it's gonna happen - but the day I CTB i don't think I'd be able to focus on anything other than the task at hand.

Definitely feel that way too, although my anxiety waxes and wanes massively. Somedays thinking about ctb feels like a knife twisting in my chest and sometimes it feels like a heavenly retreat. Whenever my time comes, I think I prefer to wait until I'm in a certain mindset and say "now is my chance!" rather than try to force it, set a deadline and be terrified. I really want to be able to talk to other people on my last day, but I suppose I've got no idea if it will be possible.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I would like to think that I would be doing all kinds of great things just enjoying the day to its fullest but in reality I am sure when the time comes it will be more spontaneous than planned, I tried planning it and had a date set for 3 years and couldn´t go through with it so even though it would be amazing to have one last amazing day I don´t think I can plan for it.