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a.hamza.13

a.hamza.13

Member
Apr 15, 2024
38
When we were growing, we had a lot of dreams. We were energetic and zealous about our dreams. But now unfortunately we are on a stage where all our dreams are buried. Could you tell what were your dreams when you were growing?
 
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krnaaTh

krnaaTh

searching nothingness
Jun 12, 2024
22
I remember growing up just wanting to help others and being a good person who everyone loves. I didn't realize it when I was younger, but that was precisely because I couldn't focus on my own life and was uninterested in everything even to this day, so I dreamed of growing up helping everyone I could and becoming someone loved by everyone just like my grandma (who was my inspiration). Nowadays, I don't really care about anything, specially since I can't even love myself at all
 
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burntboy

burntboy

Member
Jun 13, 2024
15
i wanted to be a famous musician, it was my life goal. i used to cry so hard thinking i was not like the famous rockstars i idolized. then i got really close to being at least a pro in my late teens, getting involved with the music scene in my hometown. but unmedicated bipolar and alcholism sent everything down the drain. nowdays i can't really play the guitar cause it makes me feel bad. but ig you reap what you sow.
 
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Rocinante

Rocinante

My name is Lucifer, please take my hand
Aug 26, 2022
1,379
I wanted to be a vocalist in a progressive rock band like Rush, Yes, or Tool
Now I'm just saving to travel. Don't see any other life worth living.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
35,469
To be dead, I've only ever wished for permanent non-existence, my dream has always been to be eternally unable to suffer in any way, ever since I was aware of what death was it comforted me. I've never wished to exist, having the ability to exist will always be so undesirable in every way, if it's up to me I'd have chose to erase my existence so it's like I never existed at all.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,877
Become wealthy - didn't work out...
Experience love - no luck.
Be attractive - failed, didn't emerge as one of the beautiful people. Sucks big time being average or maybe worse. NPC existence.
 
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waningmoth

waningmoth

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Aug 29, 2023
53
Mine was quite weird i remember getting into trouble because when asked as a kid i told someone i wanted to be a stripper, as well as a house cleaner which also got me into trouble as it was to quote my mum "too common and low class"

Turns out i just wanted peoples approval and those were the two ways i knew how to get it.

Now im an adult i can see the funny side and reflect on me missing my calling as a half naked french maid for hire. could have been quite lucrative!
 
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sserafim

sserafim

brighter than the sun, that’s just me
Sep 13, 2023
8,807
I wanted to be a vocalist in a progressive rock band like Rush, Yes, or Tool
Now I'm just saving to travel. Don't see any other life worth living.
We should be travel vloggers
 
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lomorbu

lomorbu

the stars are already dead
Jun 16, 2024
38
I just wanted to be creative. I've always been multi talented and tried to pursue each one once I got out of school, but nothing really went anywhere. There's nothing I particularly want to do anymore and my family seems to resent me for it. My goal now is to just clock in and out of work
 
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Mirrory Me

Mirrory Me

"Life's a mirror, but 'whose' mirror?"
Mar 23, 2023
783
I had pretty much useless dreams while I was growing up, they never got very serious or convincing (had some terrible influences in my life, like staying with people who only like to hang out and use drugs).
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
20,318
When I was really young, like 5-7 years old, I wanted to be either an astronaut or a basketball player. Pretty generic. Later I thought I might want to be a veterinarian but then when I was ten years old I discovered Garfield comics and for a while I wanted to do something related to animation or cartoons. Unfortunately it took me until my second year of college and after taking a few animation classes to realize that I actually suck at drawing or being creative in any capacity.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
3,666
I never really had any dreams tbh. Nothing in life appealed to me and that's still true to this day. My mind truly cannot comprehend as to how so many people have dreams they aspire to. I never really been interested in anything at life and that's still true to this day
 
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locked*n*loaded

locked*n*loaded

Archangel
Apr 15, 2022
6,474
Only as a child, wanted to become a test pilot like Steve Austin. Other than that, never had any "dreams" of becoming anything.
 
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pollux

pollux

Knight of Infinite Resignation
May 24, 2024
125
Usually I fantasized about being the main character of games I played or anime I watched (not literally the main character, but me transposed to that character's role)
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
4,052
I had no dreams or aspirations as a child. I guess latently I knew that I was not cut out for adult life. And as it turned out it didn't take very long for suicidal thoughts to permanently set in after high school.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
8,187
I always wanted to work in the creative industry. For a long time I thought if I could just achieve that, it would be all I needed. It's been my major coping mechanism in life.

I sort of achieved it. Not anything spectacular. I'll never be as good as I want to be. I'm grateful to an extent when I have work though and especially grateful that I'm not having to do another job at the moment. That threat is always there though.

I feel like- even when we get our dreams, they often come with a whole load of conditions, compromises and negatives. Plus, it also makes you think- you've got what you wanted and you still aren't happy so- what more is there?

I always wanted a partner too but I think the ship has sailed on that one.
 
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HereTomorrow

On break. Read "About" on profile.
Feb 1, 2024
326
Wanted to go in the medical field like my family (Asian). I've taken classes on Medical laboratory, anatomy, and medical physiology, and had talks about seriously going for half a decade, I genuinely thought j was going to go there.

I know that sounds a bit boring compared to other dreams here. I wasn't really a overreaching person. If I could hang out with my friends a lot more often then 3-4 times a year, I would be more then sastified growing up. It sounds so simple, but I was almost always at home studying for the university I never attended.

It crushed my family when I gave up on the medical dream. They don't talk to me as often, and when I try to be happy or discuss positive things, they go "Okay, when are you going back to college?"

My dreams were to listen to what other people told me to. I struggle to think of anything myself.
 
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babyharpseal

babyharpseal

Member
Jun 15, 2024
46
when i was a kid i wanted to b a cartoonist. i grew up and didnt want to work in art bc theres no jobs and u'll just drain all ur creativity making crap for other ppl

i dont rly remember wanting to do anything as a teenager. maybe like. video game designer -> found out abt their shit work conditions n job competition. web dev or programmer -> hate programming unless im making silly things for fun. cyber forensics -> its not as interesting as it looks on tv + a lot of the job is dealing w child pornography.

i left highschool having no clue. my new dream is "a WFH job where i can slack off alll day unnoticed and the work is sparse and easy"
 
eatantz

eatantz

I luv dolls
Nov 4, 2023
535
Artist or architect but my real dream was to be married, it still is tbf
 

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