What were your dreams growing up and do you enjoy romanticizing them if you could?

[idelttoilfsadness21]

Dreams fade, humans grow, but the inner child never goes away. Share your dreams and how you can romanticize them.

I'll go first.

I wanted to be an architect or a singer, and I am not, but I still somewhat pretend like I'm taking notes, studying, reading, and it makes me feel a bit happy through get the day done and started and puts me back into when it all happened. I stay focused in waking up and stay giving myself some peace of mind to energize the feeling and process or music helps when it's related to what I picture in my head as an architect, I give myself room to just do the little tasks, and for the singing part, I always do vocalizing lessons and put some time to allowing the instrumentals I like to be song while allowing the lyrics to grow through my harmonies and tones when I sing. I am still working to perfect this but a simple romanization makes it feels the soul a bit! ((:

 

[Shadows From Hell]

I grew up wanting to be a train engineer. Never happened, but to this day I will sit and watch trains go by wishing I was the one driving it.

 

[raskol1980]

I wanted to be an American cop (from uk) It always seemed so glamorous and dangerous and you got a gun! That's one of my dreams I'm glad I didn't follow...
Genuinely though, a close family member (my offing mum) told me around 12 that I seemed like one of those people who would just float through life and be fine. Made a big deal about it being my path. Not needing to focus, I mean it's not her fault I did lol but I did and am now 42 in a homeless shelter organising the end of my like. Alone in a shared hose with a raging alcoholic who is apparently a rapist too!

... I feel I've changed the tone of this thread ignore me :D

 

[overcastdays]

Since I'm too lazy to really write anything, I'll just copy and paste a message I sent during a conversation I had with a friend regarding my former dreams for the future.

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I'm not too sure. I've had a general direction I've felt like I've wanted to go towards for a while, this being some broad focus on some type of physics or engineering related field (as far as engineering goes, maybe mechanical, civil, transportation, materials, systems, safety, or nuclear, the last of which I really want, since anything in the nuclear/particle field has always been sort of a dream of mine for the past few years), though I've kind of given up on the pure science aspect of it because I'm just kind of stupid and not an innovator of any sort which is why I've pivoted to the engineering side (though as far as that goes, I used to think maybe a particle, nuclear, condensed matter, or astro physics sort of field). I also have some weird "shot in the dark" interests like something in the linguistics field or something, on the other hand, maybe a historian, or archaeologist, as these topics interest me as well. Way back when, the field that interested me the most was biology, so I sometimes wonder what would have happened if I stuck with that interest instead, and even earlier, I wanted to be an architect, which I suppose is kinda funny since it's come full circle with the whole civil engineering thing, at least sort of.

So, in short, everything I really do want is just some far off, poorly defined and distant dream. So, no, I don't really know what I want either. I don't know. I don't really have a purpose in life anymore, I don't know what I want at the moment, and I don't know when I will, and if it will be too late by then, or not. I guess I just want to be proud of myself.

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I suppose I do romanticize many of these careers to varying degrees, I've always admired the "field" of science to varying degrees, drifting from field to field, and I guess I've settled on admiring physics as of late. It's just so incredibly fascinating to me, how people in this field do all sorts of things, are able to come up with the most cutting-edge technologies of our species, are able to, via some idealization, map out and define every interaction between bodies of matter both big and small, and further our understanding of the fundamental characteristics of our universe. It's something that I, in my idiocy and lack of ability to enter the field myself, look upon in absolute awe and amazement, a field I am absolutely dumbstruck, blinded by, and that I idolize and admire so much.

 

[GalacticWarrior777]

As a child, I always dreamt about living a peaceful and quiet life with the friends from my childhood (Who I sadly no longee have contact with), travel around the world with them, have fun and enjoy our lives as much as possible. Nowadays, I still dream about living a peaceful life, with a couple friends ( or possibly a girlfriend, if I ever do find one). Im recovering, but I believe that im shy by character and not due to my trauma and mental problems. I also always dreamt of having tons of cats in that house as I love just how cozy and lovely cats are, especially cuddling with cats!

 

[Haematemesis]

I wanted to have a big happy family with lots of children (as if they are property)
Living in a rural area.

Now I have let go of my dreams because my philosophy has changed. I am an anti-natalist now and although I am still young I doubt I will get any love or anything to start a family.

 

[Frozen Blood]

I was a big dreamer as a child. Oh, the things I wanted to do! First, I wanted to be a scientist. I didn't even know what one did: I only knew they used those cool white lab coats and messed with colorful liquids.

As I grew older, I realized that the kind of scientist I wanted to be was a biologist. And I fantasized about it for a while, but soon in my childhood I started to dealt with the symptoms of ADHD and realized maybe I could never study enough to go through this graduation.

My writing (in my native language, of course) has always been very complimented by everyone. So I decided that I would be a writer, and for the most part of my teen years it was what I had in mind. But I became depressed, dropped out of school, developed a crippling social anxiety and realized that I could never be capable of dedicate myself enough to write the stories I wanted.

Nowadays, I don't feel like I can dream anymore. Upon so many unrealized dreams, it's like my brain doesn't even allow me to do that anymore.

So I just live hoping for the best.

 

[idelttoilfsadness21]

I was a big dreamer as a child. Oh, the things I wanted to do! First, I wanted to be a scientist. I didn't even know what one did: I only knew they used those cool white lab coats and messed with colorful liquids.

As I grew older, I realized that the kind of scientist I wanted to be was a biologist. And I fantasized about it for a while, but soon in my childhood I started to dealt with the symptoms of ADHD and realized maybe I could never study enough to go through this graduation.

My writing (in my native language, of course) has always been very complimented by everyone. So I decided that I would be a writer, and for the most part of my teen years it was what I had in mind. But I became depressed, dropped out of school, developed a crippling social anxiety and realized that I could never be capable of dedicate myself enough to write the stories I wanted.

Nowadays, I don't feel like I can dream anymore. Upon so many unrealized dreams, it's like my brain doesn't even allow me to do that anymore.

So I just live hoping for the best.

Reading these makes me so happy I got to reach others who feel the same way about dreams, and I am still working to responding to everyone while interacting and engaging through emojis, and this is by far the most stellar worded and descriptive thing regarding hopes and dreams being tarnished and vanquished by perils of frustration and endless pain, and that struggle isn't your fault. I wish to share how lovely you written scientists with the pieces you described them as being with cool lab coats on because you would've been fascinated by Frankenstein, who was a scientist who novel at the creation of creating a being to life own his own, and to think of studying the science behind most atoms and particles through life, you would've loved him as your role models specially creating who he would've been to you, because he might've been a fictional character, but he holds the idea of being patient when all failed and kept trying, even using corpses he took to create his creation. I don't know how they'll symbolize to you, but I understand needing to give up and feeling like all is so greatly lost when it comes to your inspirations, and I love how you tried it, even though it's much harder, and don't let anyone, not even me say that's alright, because you should've had time to enjoy your dreams before your brain overworked itself for you to properly function and as someone with aDHD, I deeply relate to that so much, especially as it's really hard, and you must've tried so very hard, too.



Good luck for trying through it despite the memories being a blur these days

 

[Frozen Blood]

Reading these makes me so happy I got to reach others who feel the same way about dreams, and I am still working to responding to everyone while interacting and engaging through emojis, and this is by far the most stellar worded and descriptive thing regarding hopes and dreams being tarnished and vanquished by perils of frustration and endless pain, and that struggle isn't your fault. I wish to share how lovely you written scientists with the pieces you described them as being with cool lab coats on because you would've been fascinated by Frankenstein, who was a scientist who novel at the creation of creating a being to life own his own, and to think of studying the science behind most atoms and particles through life, you would've loved him as your role models specially creating who he would've been to you, because he might've been a fictional character, but he holds the idea of being patient when all failed and kept trying, even using corpses he took to create his creation. I don't know how they'll symbolize to you, but I understand needing to give up and feeling like all is so greatly lost when it comes to your inspirations, and I love how you tried it, even though it's much harder, and don't let anyone, not even me say that's alright, because you should've had time to enjoy your dreams before your brain overworked itself for you to properly function and as someone with aDHD, I deeply relate to that so much, especially as it's really hard, and you must've tried so very hard, too.



Good luck for trying through it despite the memories being a blur these days

Thank you for your words. I came to this forum to not be judged by my suicide thoughts, but also to resonate with others who do not want to go without trying. I am very happy that we all can have this connection and, maybe, do a little good to each other.

Recovery is a good thing too! I know some doesn't believe in it anymore, I barely do, but if I may have one more dream, is that at least some of us could wake up every single day a little stronger to fight this battle and, who knows, maybe this is the dream I can realize.

And about Frankenstein, ironically, is one of the next ones I plan on reading. So, it will not take long to experience all that you just told me. Thank you again and good luck 4 you too!