Discussion What was the one mistake that ruined your life and has you about to ctb?

[OnlyBuilt4Linxs]

I see multiple people say how one mistake ruined there life and now has them about to ctb

If this is you, what is it? I'm genuinely curious because I can't imagine just one thing going wrong and you can't bounce back from that

Different situation from someone like me who's main reason for ctbing is a cumulative of events.

 

[Weightoftheworld]

Being born. Basically anyway, lol.

 

[Ardesevent]

I ended up abandoning or being ghosted by any friends I had. I haven't texted anyone or been texted by anyone I know in over a month now. That loneliness is one of my main reasons.

 

[Cancún]

go to a p doc

 

[WinterFaust]

I see multiple people say how one mistake ruined there life and now has them about to ctb

If this is you, what is it? I'm genuinely curious because I can't imagine just one thing going wrong and you can't bounce back from that

Different situation from someone like me who's main reason for ctbing is a cumulative of events.

I think for some it's one thing that had a domino effect. For me, it was my manic episode. Everything following and even my depressive episode now that caused my current health problems stemmed from that. For me however, I was already dealing with severe depression, anxiety, and insecurity beforehand. Made it very easy for what was left to fall apart after I lost what was near and dear to me. But that's just my experience. Would I have eventually ctb otherwise? I'm not sure. But it would have taken much longer and been less likely

 

[Dnz4ever]

My wife was experiencing difficulty breathing and abdominal pain. She didnt want to go to the hospital because we had just bought our home.

She was a severe asthmatic so we assumed that's what it was. She was having a hard time so I asked what she wanted...


She told me to make a decision so we went to the ER.

As we pulled into the emergency room parking lot, instead of just sticking to my guns and walking on in, asked her "are you sure?" To which I knew the answer -she responded no.


A week later she died on our back patio from an embolism in her 20s.

 

[Canon1]

I lost my gf because I was ignorant and didn't care about her properly. Worst mistake in my life. She left and has a new boyfriend now.

 

[mediocre]

For me it was a mix of numerous mistakes/missed opportunities and the inability to function and rationalise like a normal person. My Aspergers stops me from doing that. Everything has always been a struggle or a hardship. I have isolated myself to the point of no return and ruined my body by not being healthy and taking care of it. I'm totally fucked now.

 

[Kumachan]

I lost my gf because I was ignorant and didn't care about her properly. Worst mistake in my life. She left and has a new boyfriend now.

I lost 3 wives like that, but the last one was the sweetest woman i ever met. And i treated her like crap. Cheated like 50 times, got caught almost every time. Was rude to her - yes she was a bit clingy at times cos she was madly in love with me, such a caring cute person... And it was my initiative to divorce. Im a fucking moron. I think about her every minute now(its been 1.5 years now) and its agony. Regret is a fucking agony.

 

[Emily123]

Going to Thailand for the first facial surgery . Going to Mexico for revision

 

[Painpleasure]

I trusted and expected my family to have my best interest and wellbeing at heart. Biggest mistake of my life.

On the plus side I've learnt that it's imperative to be selfish and unashamedly so at all times... Something that unfortunately doesn't come naturally to me

 

[Serenity]

Hurting my ex-boyfriend. I did a variety of stuff to him that is unforgivable - cheating, harassment, posted his nudes on 4chan, etc. I will never forgive myself for that.

 

[waterbottleman]

not having confidence in myself

 

[BobbyPellitt]

Not fighting back when I was bullied in school.

 

[OnlyBuilt4Linxs]

Not fighting back when I was bullied in school.

How has you being bullied and not fighting back affected your life today? It caused you to be outcasted and not have any friends?

 

[LMLN]

Not helping my husband enough, then he ctb.

 

[OnlyBuilt4Linxs]

Not helping my husband enough, then he ctb.

If somebody truly wants to kill themself, there's nothing you can do. My life taught be that

 

[Epsilon0]

There isn't just one big mistake (although there is a certain defining moment which divided my life into before and after). There are many small mistakes, many tiny steps taking me down the wrong path. Having reached a certain age, I now am of opinion that my fate was pre-determined by my frail constitution and my exaggerated sensitivity. So, I suspect that, even if I had done things differently and made other choices, I would still have ended up at the bus station waiting for Godot.

 

[qwerty32]

Breaking up with my first relationship when I was angry. I regretted it one month after. Tried making up with them but wanted to stay friends. Had a hard time staying friends and now they completely blocked me.
It's been hard.

 

[Canon1]

Going to Thailand for the first facial surgery . Going to Mexico for revision

What happened?

 

[Mr2005]

Not joining a plastic surgery forum in 2004.

 

[itsamadworld]

Being born. Having BPD. My marriage to a religious nut-job. I'm so horrified by religion, I can't even go in a religious establishment or hear anything about gawd without becoming physically ill...

 

[mothdust9]

Trusting doctors was my biggest mistake.

 

[autumnal]

My wife was experiencing difficulty breathing and abdominal pain. She didnt want to go to the hospital because we had just bought our home.

She was a severe asthmatic so we assumed that's what it was. She was having a hard time so I asked what she wanted...


She told me to make a decision so we went to the ER.

As we pulled into the emergency room parking lot, instead of just sticking to my guns and walking on in, asked her "are you sure?" To which I knew the answer -she responded no.


A week later she died on our back patio from an embolism in her 20s.

Sorry for your loss. Perhaps you are beating yourself up unfairly – it sounds as if she made mistakes in underestimating the seriousness of her condition. All you did was respect her judgement. In the end, neither of you could have known what was going to happen.

 

[Notabadguy]

I got harassed at work. Got anxiety. Fainted at home. Broke my jaw against the floor. A shitty surgeon made an unnecesary job. Result: permanent damage in my face, I move it unwillingly. I applied for a ridiculous job transfer to another city, when I got nobody. Profesioanlly there I can't progress, I even lose money. I'm ashamed and hurt. Got situation depression. I know it's not too much, I could carry on. But I feel at a dead-end, I prefer to stop here. A peaceful and secure way to CTB, please. Sorry for my loving parents and sister. I'm 39, but, since I'm single (which I like), they are the mainstains of my life.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Choosing bad plastic surgeon who ruined my nose, forehead and hairline.

 

[Dnz4ever]

Sorry for your loss. Perhaps you are beating yourself up unfairly – it sounds as if she made mistakes in underestimating the seriousness of her condition. All you did was respect her judgement. In the end, neither of you could have known what was going to happen.

Perhaps - but it's still a mistake we both made that she paid for

 

[letmeseethedeath]

being born and being born short small with so many problems

 

[braketimez]

I had two topping points...Getting into a relationship that messed me up, and getting on antipsychotic medication.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I had two topping points...Getting into a relationship that messed me up, and getting on antipsychotic medication.

What was the damage from the antipsychotic?