
KuriGohan&Kamehameha
想死不能 - 想活不能
- Nov 23, 2020
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I am so glad to have this forum as I can speak freely and honestly about my experiences, many communities ban you from speaking about the negatives of the mental health and medical systems. I'll start:
Therapy since I was around 10 years old, around 6 different therapists with multiple styles of therapy: CBT, mindfulness, gratitude, basic talk therapy, etc
Many psychiatrists, tried every drug in the SSRI and SNRI classes, wellbutrin, mirtazapine, two different stimulants, propranolol, buspar, hydroxyzine, lyrica, prazosin. Was neglected severely by medical professionals who only wanted to give me useless "physical exams" and not send me for actual testing, so I went years with likely drug induced vitamin deficiencies due to my high dosage polydrug cocktail . Had a vitamin B12 and D regimine for a long time and was assured it would "fix my problems". It did not.
Psychiatry ran out of things they would prescribe me, and multiple therapists said they didn't know how to handle someone with such a large amount of trauma, and weren't sure how to help. Cannot afford to blow money on a private therapist who will likely say the same things, so I stopped therapy.
I have physical illnesses as well and underwent a battery of blood tests and scans to see if there was something worsening my overall malaise. Nothing really showed up. Was told to take iduprofen for my pain, which didn't help, and took antienemics for awhile so I would be able to eat. Tried a couple different psychedelics on my own and one of them helped for around 2 days.
Nowadays I feel quite helpless because I truly have tried everything that I'm comfortable trying- I refuse ECT and I don't have access to private treatments like Ket.
I get told all the time that I'm just "giving up" and letting my PTSD (caused by abuse from a doctor) prevent me from seeking "real help" when all doctors did was brush off my pain and act like it was not real. It doesn't matter how many treatments I tried, people will always say that one must not give up and every problem has a solution, you just have to put in hard work...
Therapy since I was around 10 years old, around 6 different therapists with multiple styles of therapy: CBT, mindfulness, gratitude, basic talk therapy, etc
Many psychiatrists, tried every drug in the SSRI and SNRI classes, wellbutrin, mirtazapine, two different stimulants, propranolol, buspar, hydroxyzine, lyrica, prazosin. Was neglected severely by medical professionals who only wanted to give me useless "physical exams" and not send me for actual testing, so I went years with likely drug induced vitamin deficiencies due to my high dosage polydrug cocktail . Had a vitamin B12 and D regimine for a long time and was assured it would "fix my problems". It did not.
Psychiatry ran out of things they would prescribe me, and multiple therapists said they didn't know how to handle someone with such a large amount of trauma, and weren't sure how to help. Cannot afford to blow money on a private therapist who will likely say the same things, so I stopped therapy.
I have physical illnesses as well and underwent a battery of blood tests and scans to see if there was something worsening my overall malaise. Nothing really showed up. Was told to take iduprofen for my pain, which didn't help, and took antienemics for awhile so I would be able to eat. Tried a couple different psychedelics on my own and one of them helped for around 2 days.
Nowadays I feel quite helpless because I truly have tried everything that I'm comfortable trying- I refuse ECT and I don't have access to private treatments like Ket.
I get told all the time that I'm just "giving up" and letting my PTSD (caused by abuse from a doctor) prevent me from seeking "real help" when all doctors did was brush off my pain and act like it was not real. It doesn't matter how many treatments I tried, people will always say that one must not give up and every problem has a solution, you just have to put in hard work...