NeCkDeEp
Experienced
- Nov 30, 2019
- 285
Hello! I live alone abroad without any family (my family lives in another country) and I got 3 rabbits and a cat.
They are the reason why I haven't commited suicide yet however life becomes everyday more unbearable, breathing hurts because I'm still alive and I'm done with all the crying.
I've considered to get help but in all honesty I'm not even sure anymore or I will be able to get any better, all I want is commiting suicide.
Anyway I can't commit suicide and not being sure about what will happen with my pets, I don't want them to end up at a shelter and I don't want them to be alone for more than 12 hours while I died.
Has anyone got a solution or knows how I can secretly find out or someone is willing to take care of my pets and how can I be sure before trying anything that someone will be at my apartment within 10/12 hours?
I don't care how long it will take for someone to find my body, as long as someone will look after my pets and give them all the love & attention they need.
They are the reason why I haven't commited suicide yet however life becomes everyday more unbearable, breathing hurts because I'm still alive and I'm done with all the crying.
I've considered to get help but in all honesty I'm not even sure anymore or I will be able to get any better, all I want is commiting suicide.
Anyway I can't commit suicide and not being sure about what will happen with my pets, I don't want them to end up at a shelter and I don't want them to be alone for more than 12 hours while I died.
Has anyone got a solution or knows how I can secretly find out or someone is willing to take care of my pets and how can I be sure before trying anything that someone will be at my apartment within 10/12 hours?
I don't care how long it will take for someone to find my body, as long as someone will look after my pets and give them all the love & attention they need.