Discussion What to do while waiting?

[dreamsofescape]

• #1

In the last two years my desire to CTB had decreased, but lately I almost can't stop thinking about it again. The thing is, I recently became a mother and I literally can not go ahead with it because obviously she's going to need me for a decent amount of time. Maybe in, I don't know, 15 years or so I'll be able to finally do something if I'm not recovered - I'm really trying my best to get better -, but for now I would like to know what do you do to make the wait a little more bearable - like some kind of hobby or whatever that's gonna keep my mind out of my thoughts -, since I'm going to be here for a long time yet and I'm so morbidly bored all the time.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

Focus on loving your kid. Having one is not something I'll likely have, and kids are a blessing. Engaging in play and helping them grow is a joy..

 

[insanedoomer]

• #1

In the last two years my desire to CTB had decreased, but lately I almost can't stop thinking about it again. The thing is, I recently became a mother and I literally can not go ahead with it because obviously she's going to need me for a decent amount of time. Maybe in, I don't know, 15 years or so I'll be able to finally do something if I'm not recovered - I'm really trying my best to get better -, but for now I would like to know what do you do to make the wait a little more bearable - like some kind of hobby or whatever that's gonna keep my mind out of my thoughts -, since I'm going to be here for a long time yet and I'm so morbidly bored all the time.

it only decreased my urge to ctb .
even if i still have the idea and the need .
but the pain now is not too hard .

 

[FuneralCry]

I just try to sleep as much as possible, and I try to distract myself and pass the time. I do not enjoy anything honestly. The way I see it, all I am doing is waiting around for death to come, as no matter what it is inevitable.

 

[insanedoomer]

I just try to sleep as much as possible, and I try to distract myself and pass the time. I do not enjoy anything honestly. The way I see it, all I am doing is waiting around for death to come, as no matter what it is inevitable.

yeah same .

 

[dreamsofescape]

Focus on loving your kid. Having one is not something I'll likely have, and kids are a blessing. Engaging in play and helping them grow is a joy..

Thank you, I'll focus on that. Maybe she is the drop of joy my life was missing all this time.