What stage of ctb are you at?

[Xerxes]

Just seeing where everybody is at this stage in life with their CTB. For me currently, I'm in the area of living life with no fucks to give, but also ready to go. How bout you?

 

[MAIO]

Just seeing where everybody is at this stage in life with their CTB. For me currently, I'm in the area of living life with no fucks to give, but also ready to go. How bout you?

I tried hanging last night. I screwed up something didn't pass out/so I am trying again tonight :)

 

[Comatose11]

I've got a plan. I just want to get through my responsibilities for the break and then I'll ctb in early January. I'm also waiting for a few things to arrive in the mail.

 

[Xerxes]

I tried hanging last night. I screwed up something didn't pass out/so I am trying again tonight :)

Wish you luck buddy!

 

[MAIO]

Wish you luck buddy!

I don't need more luck. Luck has always been on my side. I got this! Farewell my friend :)

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Just need to order SN and anti-E. Ready to CTB around February.

 

[We_will_all_die_1day]

Living life no fucks to give and im ready to go, do not know how but just seeing what time has to offer before i CTB maybe ill get some more piercings or tattoo's before i go idk

 

[GhostedToast]

I'm ready, I have a plan, but i have anpromise to a friend so currently I'm living life with few fucks to give. Out of everyone in my life my friend is the oneim sticking around for rn.

 

[Kingkelly]

Ready to go....really want to wait until after Christmas so you know doesn't ruin it for everyone but it is getting harder everyday.

 

[TiredHorse]

You might add: "Ready, but stuck." I know I'm really ready to go --I've got my N2 tank here beside me as I write this, hoping for a successful exit tonight-- but I haven't been able to make the leap, and I don't know if I'll manage it tonight either.

I just want to fly free, but I feel like I'm stuck on the flypaper of life.

 

[furax53]

I'm ready to go I just have to find my partner

 

[thatguyakira123]

I'm undicided but have a plan. I tend to flip flop on the issue. Though everytime when I reach a point where I think I could live out my live something happens a few days later and I'm back at wanting to die. My mood at this particualr day is no fucks.

 

[bigj75]

Got a plan. Not sure if it will work.

 

[Final Escape]

Worried I'll never get out of this life, at least not with dignity. I was so jealous of that model that died from breast cancer recently. How lucky is that she gets breast cancer at 34 and dead in two months. Why not me? Please give me cancer or something fatal lol! I really don't want to watch myself age and end up on the street, jail, or prison.

 

[Xerxes]

You might add: "Ready, but stuck." I know I'm really ready to go --I've got my N2 tank here beside me as I write this, hoping for a successful exit tonight-- but I haven't been able to make the leap, and I don't know if I'll manage it tonight either.

I just want to fly free, but I feel like I'm stuck on the flypaper of life.

Is it due to loved ones in your immediate circle? Or something else...

 

[wanttodie]

Ready to go

 

[Final Escape]

I'm trapped here unless I get over my fear of dying. I need to maybe start eating badly, take up cigs, ingest something slow over time that will eventually kill me lol! I don't know.

 

[slowlystarve]

got a plan, gathering things, but undecided. it's looking that way though.

 

[Xerxes]

Added a Ready, but stuck option for TiredHorse and others.

 

[onewayroad]

I'm trapped here unless I get over my fear of dying. I need to maybe start eating badly, take up cigs, ingest something slow over time that will eventually kill me lol! I don't know.

Smoking and drinking like it's going out of style works well for me. Like cigarettes, alcohol is highly carcinogenic so having both is a cancer party. I don't want cancer though, except that having it would be a good reason to ctb in other people's eyes. But if your suffering is invisible then oh, no, you can never ctb. Fucking morons.

 

[Xerxes]

I believed there was a guy on here that was taking benzene capsules to induce leukemia.

 

[Mugara]

I went through rather trilling suicidal episodes to come out nearly insusceptible. Still I suffer from general boredom. Once I realised everything is pretty much pointless as one never carries their experience anywhere after death I became robotic. I'm in a daily loop without any gain. Once I'm done, I'm done for sure.

 

[TiredHorse]

Is it due to loved ones in your immediate circle? Or something else...

Many factors contribute. I hate what my death will do to my mother and sister. There's still a part of me that's curious what life might yet bring, despite my certainty that things are only going to get worse --I've never been good at leaving the cinema before the end of a film, even when it's a film I don't like. Most of all, I can't fully believe how badly my life has collapsed, and that disbelief is a constant delusional voice saying, "but wait, this might all be a nightmare that you're about to wake from." It has all gone so incredibly, completely wrong, in so short a time, that it genuinely defies belief.

Then there's that damned survival instinct...

 

[Final Escape]

I believed there was a guy on here that was taking benzene capsules to induce leukemia.

Guess she was female, yea I heard about that. Doesn't sound fun but if it's not too uncomfortable. I would want to know what to expect. Sounds awful though.

 

[Final Escape]

Many factors contribute. I hate what my death will do to my mother and sister. There's still a part of me that's curious what life might yet bring, despite my certainty that things are only going to get worse --I've never been good at leaving the cinema before the end of a film, even when it's a film I don't like. Most of all, I can't fully believe how badly my life has collapsed, and that disbelief is a constant delusional voice saying, "but wait, this might all be a nightmare that you're about to wake from." It has all gone so incredibly, completely wrong, in so short a time, that it genuinely defies belief.

Then there's that damned survival instinct...

Yes, the damn survival instinct. It's cruel to not be able to easily override this. There's so many courageous people succeeding at ctb all the time and I'm such a coward.

 

[We_will_all_die_1day]

I'm trapped here unless I get over my fear of dying. I need to maybe start eating badly, take up cigs, ingest something slow over time that will eventually kill me lol! I don't know.

Take up vaping start taking prework out and creatine and other supplements you can take along with prework out and creatine maybe will increase chances of heart attack but not guarenteed you will die unless you consume alot at once.

 

[Morpheus]

Just seeing where everybody is at this stage in life with their CTB. For me currently, I'm in the area of living life with no fucks to give, but also ready to go. How bout you?

Hi. I'm ready to go. Wishing peace to you guys. I'm an older lady with issues aplenty. My l"life" is a nightmare. I wish someone would kill me. Like me. I got rope fro Amazon, consistently try to pass out, have immersed myself in grueome autopsies to find the right placement. Ugh .What a nightmare. I don't usually have the strength to talk here. But wanted to connect.
Peace

 

[Final Escape]

Hi. I'm ready to go. Wishing peace to you guys. I'm an older lady with issues aplenty. My l"life" is a nightmare. I wish someone would kill me. Like me. I got rope fro Amazon, consistently try to pass out, have immersed myself in grueome autopsies to find the right placement. Ugh .What a nightmare. I don't usually have the strength to talk here. But wanted to connect.
Peace

Good luck :(" me too, an older lady with many issues. I didn't expect to be so messed up by age 41.

 

[Morpheus]

Final Escape, I feel exactly the same. :( No family or friends. I'm screaming inside my mind all the time.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

I have a plan and plan on getting everything I need in two weeks