Being injected with massive doses of haloperidol that made me writhe slowly writhe on the bed, my body bending into an arch. I paced on a 1 meter wide square of floor, bent at a 45 degree angle, felt my heart pound with the most intense anxiety I felt in my entire life. Crippling obssessive thoughts flooded my brain and my eyes rolled back into my skull against my will. I truly wanted to die. I cried and banged my head on the wall and begged to put me out of my misery, I screamed that I will hang myself on a charger cable. They injected me with muscles relaxants and tied me up cause suicide. I woke up a few hourd later and the writhin immediately started again. It took me 2 months to recover from this shit and even then I got random muscle twitches and panic attacks every few weeks.
Being punished for acting out by being refused water and food.
One patient poured boiling hot water from the kettle all over some other poor guys back. I watched him scream amd roll on the ground as blisters started showing up on hs red skin, nurses doing nothing. My friend got serotonin syndrome which they acknowledged after 3 days. They kept telling her she was making it up. She could have died. There was a fat woman that kept throwing tv remotes out of the 3rd story window and a young girl that ran throught the halls naked, shrieking and pouring soda all over her head until she was restrained. One girl was lying on the ground all day in various places like the common room, pretending she was unconscious but she was perfectly fine. Lots of weird stuff.
In the childrens unit I got into when I had my second episode, I was repeatedly beaten by both staff and patients. They slapped me so hard I fell off my chair, put me in chokeholds, dragged me on the floor, pulled my hair out, were biting my arms. When I tried to tell the doctors they just said Im lying. I ended up with a blackeye, a busted lip and multiple bruises on my arms. They would forcibly sedate me with giant doses of valium and tie me down even though I never did anything wrong. My mothe rkept calling and they just said I was sleeping, so she and my dad got in a car to see me. The doctors only allowed them to visit me in a dark room with no light on so they copuldnt see my injuries. When a patient raped me with a spoon my parents pulled me out.
And did I mention the 'isolated room; there was just a concrete cell with a hole to shit in? And the ooor boy locked there had a stomach bug and was forced to live in his own filth.
And they always suggested that Im either exaggerating what I feel or just straight up faking it. No compassion whatsoever, and they preached about selfishness, attention seeking behaviour and 'extreme lack of empathy' all the time. Me, shivering, cold, with an injured back. Yeah. Very helpful
Wish they would burn that clusterfuck abomination mental healthcare is to the ground.