For those of us who can't access SN (anymore) or don't want to, what method(s) are you considering instead?
I know brain damage is a risk with SN too, but with hanging it just seems complicated to get right. Physical injuries could also occur. Even if I knew the set up was perfect, I don't know if I can bring myself to do it, knowing that I could still be alive with a worse life.
I don't want to traumatize any train driver or passenger. Though I have thought about using this method only due to lack of options. But even with my head on the rails, I'd have to make sure there's no cowcatcher at the front of the train. Then get an idea of what speed is fast enough. It's too scary. I won't do it unless I have no other way. I care about people. I don't want them to be affected. The restrictions on suicide are to blame for me even considering it.
Jumping? Maybe if I'm not sober, but then you gotta make sure you don't hit anything while you're falling. Any recommendations near or in Ontario? Preferably something that is a clear landing (and the right height ofc). Please inform me on if there's any suicide patrols. I wonder how much alcohol would actually help with the fear. How much would I drink?
Guns? Even if I pass the process of obtaining one, knowing that gunshot survivors exist is enough to deter me completely. I could point it right at my brain stem and still be terrified that I'll jerk my hand or it'll miss somehow.
Drowning? Absolutely NOT because of the agonizing pain.
Inert gas and charcoal? I'll have to look more into both of them.
Please message me if you can give me clues to access DMC again. Does the link keep changing? A wellness check is no worry of mine. I think that if I'm determined enough to go through with it, my lie of meat curing will be convincing. Thank you so much for your time. I wish the best for all of you
I know brain damage is a risk with SN too, but with hanging it just seems complicated to get right. Physical injuries could also occur. Even if I knew the set up was perfect, I don't know if I can bring myself to do it, knowing that I could still be alive with a worse life.
I don't want to traumatize any train driver or passenger. Though I have thought about using this method only due to lack of options. But even with my head on the rails, I'd have to make sure there's no cowcatcher at the front of the train. Then get an idea of what speed is fast enough. It's too scary. I won't do it unless I have no other way. I care about people. I don't want them to be affected. The restrictions on suicide are to blame for me even considering it.
Jumping? Maybe if I'm not sober, but then you gotta make sure you don't hit anything while you're falling. Any recommendations near or in Ontario? Preferably something that is a clear landing (and the right height ofc). Please inform me on if there's any suicide patrols. I wonder how much alcohol would actually help with the fear. How much would I drink?
Guns? Even if I pass the process of obtaining one, knowing that gunshot survivors exist is enough to deter me completely. I could point it right at my brain stem and still be terrified that I'll jerk my hand or it'll miss somehow.
Drowning? Absolutely NOT because of the agonizing pain.
Inert gas and charcoal? I'll have to look more into both of them.
Please message me if you can give me clues to access DMC again. Does the link keep changing? A wellness check is no worry of mine. I think that if I'm determined enough to go through with it, my lie of meat curing will be convincing. Thank you so much for your time. I wish the best for all of you
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