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TakeMeToHeaven
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- Jul 25, 2024
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this poison that only temporarily tames you. What about any of this is a good idea?
I've been to psych wards over 5 times now, I don't feel any better. I feel much worse. Each time, my life descends further into hell. Each time, I'm closer to being disowned by parents due to the hospital bills.
My parents don't understand, no matter how much I explain, they think these pills do good but they worsen my mood even more. I grow even more irritable, angry, spiteful with each dose.
I told my useless doctor to get me new pills?
But guess what he did instead?
He told me he'll lower the dose, as if that'll solve anything.
And I took the lowered dosages, but the same effects remain.
I'm going insane, I'm going to fucking lose it.
The public school pipeline to prison or homelessness is real.
You hear about it as a student, and think it'll never happen to you.
I had good grades.
But I never learned how to socialize, make friends / connections, because I am born mentally ill / broken inside, so I'm destined to fail.
Let me end this life, and reincarnate into a fantasy anime world.
But I'm guessing nothing really happens after death, does it. Perhaps that's fine too.
I've been to psych wards over 5 times now, I don't feel any better. I feel much worse. Each time, my life descends further into hell. Each time, I'm closer to being disowned by parents due to the hospital bills.
My parents don't understand, no matter how much I explain, they think these pills do good but they worsen my mood even more. I grow even more irritable, angry, spiteful with each dose.
I told my useless doctor to get me new pills?
But guess what he did instead?
He told me he'll lower the dose, as if that'll solve anything.
And I took the lowered dosages, but the same effects remain.
I'm going insane, I'm going to fucking lose it.
The public school pipeline to prison or homelessness is real.
You hear about it as a student, and think it'll never happen to you.
I had good grades.
But I never learned how to socialize, make friends / connections, because I am born mentally ill / broken inside, so I'm destined to fail.
Let me end this life, and reincarnate into a fantasy anime world.
But I'm guessing nothing really happens after death, does it. Perhaps that's fine too.