Discussion What is your reason for wanting to die ?

[CosmicError]

Without going too much into details mine is that I am in a completely hopeless situation everyday is a reminder that I could have lived a better life and was meant for greater things but alas now its impossible and now I am stuck in this pathetic boring meaningless existence I have never known anything but suffering and all that life has in store for me now is suffering I will never get what I want and everyday will be a reminder of what could have been and I think death is preferable to this pathetic existence. at least in the end ill go out on my terms instead of rotting away everyday. But I am curious what is your reason.

 

[BlazingBob]

Mine is primarily chronic physical illness but also mental health. No money, no family, no partner, no kids, too sick to work but too poor not to. And now homelessness. The hardest part for me is method and actually following through with it. I don't want to get caught if I fail and be thrown in a cage.

 

[Lucid7972]

lack of meaning, existential suffering

 

[CosmicError]

Mine is primarily chronic physical illness but also mental health. No money, no family, no partner, no kids, too sick to work but too poor not to. And now homelessness. The hardest part for me is method and actually following through with it. I don't want to get caught if I fail and be thrown in a cage.

Damn that's rough I hope you find peace brother.

 

[seagullsonapiano]

For me it's primarily the total lack of respect.

I always respect everyone and treat everyone kindly and i always care for everything around me.

What happens is that really nobody ever really cared about me. Nobody takes me seriously, nobody truly loves me.

Fact is that i'm in a pretty good relationship, i have some friends, yeah sure but i keep getting treated like shit by family, relationship, friends.

Also i truly am way too afraid of the future, i can't handle everything that goes around me , expecially because of how badly i get treated and how it affects all of my goals and dreams.


Sadly there is no other choice

The lack of control over what happens around me and lack of self control is just insane. I can't handle living this way anymore, im so fucking done with this shit and i am TIRED of having NOBODY to talk to when everyone has so many people who care about them and that will listen truly to them.


I'm just so fucking done, i hope 2026 is my last year, i already have a plan of partial hanging in an abandoned urbex place, doing urbex myself im always ready to see a corpse so i'm not too worried about being found.

Getting drunk and partial hanging, this is my dream method.


Please wish me luck because nothing can help me anymore.
Therapy didn't
Cutting didn't
Becoming a musician didn't


I just hope i can do it perfectly around march or april maybe.

 

[butimstillsoblue]

Because I live a life without any love.
Because I don't have any family.
Because my partner and friends left after I was diagnosed with multiple health issues.
Because most days, I pretend I'm okay and go to work at a dead end job.
Because unless I'm on meds, and sometimes when I am, I relive

 

[CosmicError]

For me it's primarily the total lack of respect.

I always respect everyone and treat everyone kindly and i always care for everything around me.

What happens is that really nobody ever really cared about me. Nobody takes me seriously, nobody truly loves me.

Fact is that i'm in a pretty good relationship, i have some friends, yeah sure but i keep getting treated like shit by family, relationship, friends.

Also i truly am way too afraid of the future, i can't handle everything that goes around me , expecially because of how badly i get treated and how it affects all of my goals and dreams.


Sadly there is no other choice

The lack of control over what happens around me and lack of self control is just insane. I can't handle living this way anymore, im so fucking done with this shit and i am TIRED of having NOBODY to talk to when everyone has so many people who care about them and that will listen truly to them.


I'm just so fucking done, i hope 2026 is my last year, i already have a plan of partial hanging in an abandoned urbex place, doing urbex myself im always ready to see a corpse so i'm not too worried about being found.

Getting drunk and partial hanging, this is my dream method.


Please wish me luck because nothing can help me anymore.
Therapy didn't
Cutting didn't
Becoming a musician didn't


I just hope i can do it perfectly around march or april maybe.

i hope you find peace brother i hope we all find peace good luck.

 

[itsgone2]

Truth is that I made too many mistakes. Ruined me and my family. I was a horrible person.
But also something happened to the world. Hard to see a reason to live. Greed i suppose mostly. But something else too.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me never suffering ever again is just all that's positive, in this existence so torturous and terrible ceasing to exist for me would be the positive solution to find peace from the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel and existing truly is only suffering.

I'll just always see existence as the most terrible mistake that just causes all this pain and harm and I'll just always find it so harmful to suffer in this deeply undesirable, cruel and torturous existence, no matter what this existence should just never be imposed and it's just so terrible how humans cause all this cruelty and suffering by doing so, no matter what I'll just always prefer the peace of non-existence over the torture of existing and I find it so horrific how the torture can continue for decades longer with existing beings in agony every second, there just truly is so much evil in existing.

 

[Melancholys]

For me I've tried a lot to keep going, I've pushed through for so many years of my life but the trauma of my past, the mental baggage it puts on me, and so much more has me unable to cope and keep going. I've tried so many times different types of therapy, medication, hospitalization, people use all this flowery language to try to make you feel better but it doesn't help. At this point in my life, when every day is a struggle to live, I don't see any point in fighting just to fight again and again and keep putting myself through misery.

 

[dying-bellaswan]

I don't want to die actually. But I met a really terrible man who treated me very badly, and ruined the career i've dreamed of. Now i'm broke, broken and see no futur or hope for myself.

 

[etherealgoddess]

Without going too much into details mine is that I am in a completely hopeless situation everyday is a reminder that I could have lived a better life and was meant for greater things but alas now its impossible and now I am stuck in this pathetic boring meaningless existence I have never known anything but suffering and all that life has in store for me now is suffering I will never get what I want and everyday will be a reminder of what could have been and I think death is preferable to this pathetic existence. at least in the end ill go out on my terms instead of rotting away everyday. But I am curious what is your reason.

I don't think I feel strongly enough to actually follow through with suicide. I don't think I ever will. But when I feel suicidal, it's because I feel overwhelmed.

I'm genetically cooked. I inherited bipolar. It makes it insanely hard to function long-term. I have other family members with bipolar, and they are completely dysfunctional. They sit at home watching TV all day living on benefits. And it was also very hard for me to function until I got on medication. I can't live a normal life without medication. It makes me so sad that I have to access medications. If I didn't have medications, I'd lose everything.

Medication is currently making a massive impact, but I don't know if it's working as much as it should. I worry that I'll have to take a ton of medication to be functional. What if medication doesn't even work? And sometimes I just wish I wasn't here. It's so overwhelming to deal with. I wish I could just be normal.

I don't want to die actually. But I met a really terrible man who treated me very badly, and ruined the career i've dreamed of. Now i'm broke, broken and see no futur or hope for myself.

Move countries?

 

[genie]

I've been suicidal since I was 13. I went to the wrong school and I feel my life is meaningless now and I have missed out on too much. I don't even want to die, I just have a nihilistic attitude and think life is futile. When things get too bad for me, then I'll CtB.

 

[[redacted]]

I can't see myself working 9-5 for like 30 years.
I am on a dead end job with little chance of getting something better.
My salary is pretty bad (800 dollars a month)
I'm forever alone but it hurts a lot less than it used to