Discussion What is your happiest memory?

[_Maya]

A couple years ago, 2020. I used to have a big friend group i was active in, i was very talkative and constantly played with them. I have plenty of memories, playing different games with everyone and fucking around. But i have this one very specific memory of when we played this one roblox game together. Everyone was here, and i had gotten my first mic. Up until that point, i didn't use a mic simply cause i was extremely shy and didn't own one at the time. But I got one just to play with them, and it was one of my happiest memories i have.
I haven't really been able to replicate that feeling of enjoyment and happiness ever since, but i hold that memory dear to my heart.

 

[sadalways]

Strangely enough, it was probably when i dated someone. It lasted like no longer than a few weeks or so and in the end they left me for another, but even a hug at that point made me so happy, and i'll probably never get to experience anything like that again. This is like the only 'happy' memory that i can recollect right now.

 

[melancholymoonjuice]

I had such an similar experience as you. My best friend group that I ever had was in in 2017-2018 ish. We used to meet up at a friends house and play GTA online and Minecraft and Call of Duty, drank disgusting Monster Energies until our tummys hurt (I drank so many Monster Energies that I can't even stand the sight of them right now!) and ate 6 piece cucumber sushi because we couldn't afford more. Then we'd stuff our faces with cheese balls and drive over people in GTA. It was so fun. Still, every single one of the people in the friend group live in my town, but we have all changed. I don't know what happened

 

[Namelesa]

Cuddling the person of my 2nd relationship and saying about how much we love each other. To me nothing can beat this feeling but it hard to stay in relationships when I am an emotional burden and on edge about doing anything wrong or the leaving me so I try to sacrifice my own needs and less expressing about myself but that leads to me feeling worse. I want to go into another one but sacred of the same problems happening again.

 

[buzzkill]

i can barely remember the past due to trauma, but i think the happiest moment on the present is when im able to take a shower in the morning :)

 

[Darkover]

my happiest memory are of my one and only girlfriend 22 years ago back when i was 16 years old

 

[meso]

i think that will be the moment this really beautiful, smart, funny, adorable girl asked me to date her (i thought it was a joke...), the beginning of the relationship was so nice; but i fucked up i would say... 80%, she fucked up 20%; so it only lasted several months, even tho it was so passionate that we we're both thinking this will last until the twilight of our lives

 

[Reflection]

My happiest memory was when my ex girlfriend told me once about how much she loved and missed me, she even teared up and I was so so glad we had each other. Crazy how things can change this much :/

 

[longtheriverrun]

The first time someone told me they loved me, romantically

 

[lamy's sacred sleep]

they told me that they loved me, and i feel asleep to the sound of their voice
i loved spending time with them

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally don't believe in the idea of happiness in existing, to me existence is the most cruel, torturous burden and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, all I hope for is to permanently cease existing and never suffer ever again, I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way. Existing to me is only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I just wish I was never forced into this existence, I was never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty where one is destined to decay, be tortured by old age and die anyway, for me existence itself is the problem and it's a problem only ceasing to exist can bring me any relief from, I just wish for the peace of eternal nothingness.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

This is all just my opinion. To me any happiness or pleasure are addictions , these I hate those the most.

i see it as a battle in my brain. when i think about it logically my suicide is the only rational thing i can do by a trillion times.

These addictions like youtube social media news are what keep me distracted from working hours per day getting my suicide plan decided and ready to go

Prolifers use these meaningless pleasure addictions to say life is good. But they leave our that this evil crap is not worth the worst pain .

a hypothetical debate with a prolifer

Me: life is bad i want to kill myself asap
prolifer. : but life is wonderful like for example the delicious food you can eat , seeing with your eyes the beautiful flowers sunset
Me : those meaningless crap addictions are not worth the worst pain. would you trade 30 minutes of eating your food watching your nature for 30 minutes of having all of your skin scalding on burning hot metal over a fire being roasted alive but kept alive to maximize the pain every second as in the brazen bull torture. imagine putting you hand on a scalding hot stove and having to leave it there for 10 seconds , a minute , 30 minutes. having all of your skin burning at the same time is orders of magnitude worse than just your hand. i don';t need any of that pleasure shit i have to eat cause i haven't defeated the hunger pain and torture of starvation. but i don't need nor want anything that isn't biologically forced like drinking water, sleeping , rest , food , breathing cause i can't take the pain of not doing these ... what i don't want is unbearable pain . there is pain so bad 1 minute of it makes everything else meaningless. it's possible for that worst pain to keep constant unending constant unbearable pain every second for decades and try to sleep with that kind of pain. not sleeping is a hell by itself proving the brain is so weak needs at least 6 hours of sleep per night or you will suffer

 

[davidtorez]

This is all just my opinion. To me any happiness or pleasure are addictions and I hate those the most.

i see it as a battle in my brain. when i think about it logically my suicide is the only rational thing i can do by a trillion times.

These addictions like youtube social media news are what keep me distracted from working hours pet day getting my suicide plan decided an ready to go

Prolifers use these meaningless pleasure addictions to say life is good. But they leave our that this evil crap is not worth the worst pain .

a hypothetical debate with a prolifer

Me: life is bad i want to kill myself asap
prolifer. : but life is wonderful like for example the delicious food you can eat , seeing with your eyes the beautiful flowers sunset
Me : those meaningless crap addictions are not worth the worst pain. would you trade 30 minutes of eating your food watching your nature for 30 minutes of having all of your skin scalding on burning hot metal over a fire being roasted alive but kept alive to maximize the pain every second as in the brazen bull torture. imagine putting you hand on a scalding hot stove and having to leave it there for 10 seconds , a minute , 30 minutes. having all of your skin burning at the same time is orders of magnitude worse than just your hand. i don';t need any of that pleasure shit i have to eat cause i haven't defeated the hunger pain and torture of starvation. but i don't need nor want anything that isn't biologically forced like drinking water, sleeping , rest , food , breathing cause i can't take the pain of not doing these ... what i don't want is unbearable pain . there is pain so bad 1 minute of it makes everything else meaningless. it's possible for that wost pain to keep constant undending constant unbearable pain every second for decades and try to sleep with that king of pain. not sleeping is a hell by itself proving the brain is so weak needs at least 6 hours of sleep per night or you will suffer

This

 

[FoxSauce]

My most happiest memory is was being in the mental hospital feeling like i belonged for once but my happiest was when I arrived home.

And when i got home my sisters hugged me and it felt that i was really missed.

And seeing my dog wagging her tail and whimpering once she saw me get off the car.


Makes me teary eyed thinking about it one of my darkest moments yet happy.

 

[divinemistress36]

When I was a kid going to the amusement park cause it was fun, carefree, and freeing. The rush of going on the rollercoasters with friends and forgetting about all worries

 

[Nov26th]

I think the most free I have ever felt was when I experienced ego death through acid after staying at the hospital in a psych ward for a week I went home and I knew I was gonna be alone, just me and my cats and was in a surprisingly good headspace in that moment. I remember what it felt like to be at peace like in those moments, I felt the rush in the rebirth, and once I pushed through the really painful part, there was just bliss at the end, and I turned off my fan and all the noise that I keep on 24/7 to keep away the thoughts and I just listened to the outside and I petted my cat, in awe. And I felt like that's how we're supposed to be. I felt like an animal that knew nothing of the passage of time and I just felt like I was in the moment. I miss how I felt so bad I miss not being in my head. I think that was the only time I was ever truly alive. I've never felt that good. I felt so good, I even called my mom and told her I wanted to live. I feel like such an idiot now for doing that, but that's truly how I felt in that moment.

 

[shrizoid]

I really don't remember, but I will say it was when I drove for the first time a few years ago, very stupid I know but I liked cars alllot and being able to finally drive one filled me with extreme joy

 

[societyhater]

With her

 

[ForgottenAgain]

It's hard to pick one but I think it would be the moment I saw and hugged my boyfriend at the airport, when he moved country to live with me.

He was the best relationship I had ever had. We met and dated in university but we broke up due to life circumstances. 3 years later, after I moved country, I reached out to him, we reignited our love and, after the pandemic, he came to live with me.

The excitement, anxiety and anticipation of seeing the person you love after not seeing them for like...4 years, it's unforgettable.
We are still together now and he's my main reason for continuing to be alive.

 

[areyousafe??]

A couple of days before my boy cat passed away, he slept in my lap for over an hour, occasionally purring. I was content.

 

[outrider567]

Christmas mornings as a kid

 

[ilvgore]

the moments i spend with him

 

[princejohnny]

I went to the best concert of my entire life last week. I was so high on edibles that I sobbed through half the set. It felt like a religious experience. Too bad I'm an atheist lol

 

[zappynomore]

really not sure tbh its hard. i guess maybe some childhood memory of being and playing with friends in the summer holidays care free days.

 

[WhenIBreathe]

Good times with ex partner.

 

[death_bed221]

I just want to be a kid again. I feel my brain never matured . I have a kid brain but somehow I have to be an adult

 

[BlueButterfly111]

My boyfriend passed away 7 months ago and I miss him so much. The first time we were in bed together, he said something that made me laugh really hard and while I was laughing he said, "Oh I'm so glad that I can make you laugh," "Your parents were making love when they were making you."

 

[MsifuentesX22]

I think when I was living with My girlfriend

 

[pathetic failure]

I don't have a particular memory in mind.I had some good moments with my friends in the past but I don't remember something specific.


However I have this one scenario that I play in my head when I sleep:
It's me coming home from work and having dinner with my beautiful wife and daughter.Basicaly a happy family moment.

I know I would never have that but thinking of it makes me feel a little better and sometimes I pretend it's a memory from the future

 

[saturn1402]

My ex proposing to me on a beach during the blue moon