_Minsk
death: the cure for life
- Dec 9, 2019
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Hit in the head (TBI) as a child, I already lost my mind. Dyslexia from that TBI, 5 hernias (2 spinal), diabetes etc (disabled enough) and kicked out at age 16. Been arrested (for nothing) and homeless (at least 5 times).That's not what I fear; I fear what would happen to me after unsuccessfully attempting suicide.Losing my mind. Being disabled or very ill. Having no money later in life. Being arrested or homeless. Being completely isolated.
Yeah our body's capacity for pain scares me. I hate the fact that something so small like a momentary lapse in focus while driving can lead to me instantly being in unimaginable amounts of suffering. I guess it's a good thing my brain fools itself into thinking that could never happen to me, because if it didn't I don't think I'd ever leave the house.Physical pain.