AlbigenseanGhoul
Duke of Notting Toulouse
- Jun 9, 2023
- 11
First post, so please do point out if I'm being dumb. I posted here rather than the "suicide discussion" for a less desperate discussion and to avoid people reading this as a "call to violence".
I recently learned of this community through that shitty tantacrul video, for which the lil' lad got literally hundreds of dollars in youtube donations alone. It came to me a in a very good time, as I was thinking a lot about why our society just won't let me die without forking a bunch of money (which I don't have) to do it. Now, I'm mentally ill, but physically able, so it's within the realm of possibility to torture myself under capitalism so I can get the means to leave this society through legal or illegal means. However one thing that got my mood much better, while still maintaining my blasé attitude towards living was the idea of getting organized and forcing this world to be better. Much more than any med or expensive treatment in fact. What are they gonna do, kill me? Guantanamo is still open I guess...
I understand that this route is not for everyone. I happen to be financially well off and able-bodied enough that this is much easier for me. Additionally I come from a Latinamerican Marxist perspective, which I'm sure isn't shared by all of those here. However you'd be surprised the effect that "just being annoying" can have in society. The odds of success still seem way higher than the ctb methods that are usually tried out there. I've seen lots of old users from here who probably no longer breath who were okay with traumatizing or harming people in their chosen method, so it's not like this forum is that afraid of making some actual noise.
As a final note, I leave this quote from Tom Hayden of the Chicago 8, which has nothing to do with suicide, but has been on my mind for some 4 months now. It really does feel appropriate to how I feel about dying.
I recently learned of this community through that shitty tantacrul video, for which the lil' lad got literally hundreds of dollars in youtube donations alone. It came to me a in a very good time, as I was thinking a lot about why our society just won't let me die without forking a bunch of money (which I don't have) to do it. Now, I'm mentally ill, but physically able, so it's within the realm of possibility to torture myself under capitalism so I can get the means to leave this society through legal or illegal means. However one thing that got my mood much better, while still maintaining my blasé attitude towards living was the idea of getting organized and forcing this world to be better. Much more than any med or expensive treatment in fact. What are they gonna do, kill me? Guantanamo is still open I guess...
I understand that this route is not for everyone. I happen to be financially well off and able-bodied enough that this is much easier for me. Additionally I come from a Latinamerican Marxist perspective, which I'm sure isn't shared by all of those here. However you'd be surprised the effect that "just being annoying" can have in society. The odds of success still seem way higher than the ctb methods that are usually tried out there. I've seen lots of old users from here who probably no longer breath who were okay with traumatizing or harming people in their chosen method, so it's not like this forum is that afraid of making some actual noise.
As a final note, I leave this quote from Tom Hayden of the Chicago 8, which has nothing to do with suicide, but has been on my mind for some 4 months now. It really does feel appropriate to how I feel about dying.
[...] He's going to be all right, but he would want you to do for him what he is unable to do because he is in the hospital -- and that is make sure that if blood is going to flow, let it flow all over the city. If gas is going to be used -- let that gas come down all over Chicago and not just over us in this park. That if the police are going to run wild let them run wild all over the city of Chicago and not over us in this park. That if we are going to be disrupted, and violated, let this whole stinking city be disrupted and violated, let this whole military machine which is aimed at us ... around the city, don't get trapped in some kind of large organized march which can be surrounded. Begin to find your way out of here. I'll see you in the streets.