What is the worst thing about being alive?

[SuicidalSymphonies]

In your opinion, what is the worst thing about inhabiting this world in life?

I think for me, it's probably the mental and physical anguish that I suffer from as well as my embarrassing lack of motivation that makes me come off as lazy to other people... So I'm just lazy to others... And they voice it, too.

 

[NotGonnaLast]

My family. I love them so much and I'd give my life for them but I'm not even an afterthought for them. I am unwanted and completely forgettable.

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

My family. I love them so much and I'd give my life for them but I'm not even an afterthought for them. I am unwanted and completely forgettable.

I'm so sorry to hear this. I have the opposite issue.. All of my family is incredibly concerned about what happens to me. I won't be able to slip away quietly, I don't think. Hugs..

 

[TowerUpright]

For me, living a lie. Putting on a false face, attitude, etc., to get through this long path of live, I've mistakenly chosen.

 

[Deleted member 18655]

Trying. Over and over. Giving everything I've got to better myself or change my situation or make myself "better," only to fall and fail miserably. And never having learned my lesson time after time.

 

[krsu]

the worst part about being alive is knowing there is no way to cure the borderline personality disorder i was diagnosed with after all the abuse, I feel like a puppet being controlled and laughed at when it purposely makes me lose everything thats ever made me happy. I have nothing now and I feel like an empty shell pretending to be normal for other people :)

I would love to go back in time and destroy my abuser just like he destroyed me

 

[Soulless_Angel]

a carousal of hell that I simply cannot escape from, Life isn't life, it's simply existing because it's expected, these are the worst things about being alive, Oh and realising the lies so called loved ones tell you

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

For me, living a lie. Putting on a false face, attitude, etc., to get through this long path of live, I've mistakenly chosen.

Ah, this is a fair reply. I know exactly how that feels.. That's for sure another thing that I regret. God, I remember being an innocent child and thinking I'd be doing great by the time I was 18, then in my teen years I just wanted to die and it continued into adulthood. Here I am, 23 and a complete loser.

I'm sorry to hear that you feel like you've wasted your life. x

 

[NotGonnaLast]

I'm so sorry to hear this. I have the opposite issue.. All of my family is incredibly concerned about what happens to me. I won't be able to slip away quietly, I don't think. Hugs..

My family know I'm suicidal. I've even told 2 of them that I'm on this website and they just didn't care and ignored it so they could talk about themselves. My brother treats me as a child, my sister acts as if I'm HER child and the other 3 just act as if I don't exist. I'm not a human to them but an abstract idea that pops into their heads every now and then

 

[SuicidalSymphonies]

the worst part about being alive is knowing there is no way to cure the borderline personality disorder i was diagnosed with after all the abuse, I feel like a puppet being controlled and laughed at when it purposely makes me lose everything thats ever made me happy. I have nothing now and I feel like an empty shell pretending to be normal for other people :)

I would love to go back in time and destroy my abuser just like he destroyed me

Ahh, yes.. It sounds like hell to live like that. I've had a handful of abusers, myself, but there's only one I'd love to see go through what they put me through. Ruined my view of people and scared me away from a lot of opportunities of intimacy, etc;

a carousal of hell that I simply cannot escape from, Life isn't life, it's simply existing because it's expected, these are the worst things about being alive, Oh and realising the lies so called loved ones tell you

I feel like life is some sort of punishment for us tortured souls. I am tired of being looked down on because I don't work, haven't finished highschool, etc;
Life is just being a slave until your last breath.

My family know I'm suicidal. I've even told 2 of them that I'm on this website and they just didn't care and ignored it so they could talk about themselves. My brother treats me as a child, my sister acts as if I'm HER child and the other 3 just act as if I don't exist. I'm not a human to them but an abstract idea that pops into their heads every now and then

That's horrible. Your family doesn't sound that nice.. In a way I'm glad my family cares, but it just makes the end of my life so much harder.

 

[SpottedPanda]

For me it's just the perpetual march of time, never knowing for sure when it's going to end. That, and having to expend energy on things I not only don't care for but actively resent

 

[Acerakis]

Constantly feeling like if I had done minor things differently in the past then I might be happy.

 

[Seagirl]

Not having the courage to end it.
The world is over populated so why wont they open suicide clinics. With no long mental health see a pointless councillor palava,

 

[ghostgirl1995]

Knowing some of my mistakes cannot be undone. Hurting people unintentionally.

 

[RileyTanaka]

One word: people. They can incredibly ugly to each other, selfish, and take up resources mercilessly.

Also, the fact that tragedy can strike you down at any time and ruin your life. I know, it happened to me.

 

[itsamadworld]

the worst part about being alive is knowing there is no way to cure the borderline personality disorder i was diagnosed with after all the abuse, I feel like a puppet being controlled and laughed at when it purposely makes me lose everything thats ever made me happy. I have nothing now and I feel like an empty shell pretending to be normal for other people :)

I would love to go back in time and destroy my abuser just like he destroyed me

I can relate to this.

One word: people. They can incredibly ugly to each other, selfish, and take up resources mercilessly.

Also, the fact that tragedy can strike you down at any time and ruin your life. I know, it happened to me.

Sorry to hear of your tragedy. That always sucks. People can be very ugly. True is that!

 

[Fedrea]

The exhaustion and fear about the future

 

[lostangel]

I suppose the '' dog eat dog'' mentality society has. You need to be strong mentally or you're fucked.

Another way is just how life is structured. You go to school till you're 18 and then college for 4 and then work until you die. Life is just trash. I don't know what else to say.

 

[Notwinnernotawin]

Not having freedom, like a normal person, to just be and live; and being portrayed as a monster when I'm really not one.

 

[TheSkyIsBlue]

People

 

[mpnf]

Not having full control over your mind, body or your life in general. I feel trapped.

 

[Good4Nothing]

Being alone. Not having someone to share my life with.

 

[stormy_night]

I know someone being in a vegetative state. That is the worst thing about being alive.

 

[Kringle's Curse]

Realizing that my death will make more sense than my life. That hurts me so bad.

 

[dysfunctional]

My bipolar disorder and the havoc and misery it wreaks on my life.

 

[Darksektori]

The worst thing? Impossible to say just one reason, personally It took many reasons to land me here. For starters I hate when people tell you to "Suck it up", or "tough it out" or my least favorite "shit happens deal with it" fucking "baby boomers" let me tell you. But its probably just the oblivious ignorance towards our struggle because if they dont get it before we CTB they sure as hell going to get it after.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

The fact that im still alive.

 

[Adamsnolife]

The times that you can't get to sleep. Most nights I have real trouble due to things on the mind. Cannot switch off most of the time . It's literally killing me

 

[Fragile]

having to hurt others if I want to stop this suffering.

 

[Odd_Duck]

About my life specifically? Multiple chronic "mental illnesses". As my brother once told me, "If you don't have your mind, you don't have anything." He well-meaningly intended this as encouragement to "get better", but it's not as if I ever had a normal baseline that I could get back to. It feels more like being born with psychological AIDS -- I'll never know life without it, and the best treatments are just a painful prolonging of an ever-decreasing quality of life.

About life in general? Money. As if life itself and everything it entails wouldn't be enough to contend with, we're forced to play this absurd and absurdly high stakes game we never signed up for. If a magic wand could whisk away my psychological problems, I'd likely still be at this suicidal juncture just to free myself from the reality that the world, and the lives of everyone in it, really revolves around money. Despite coming from a working class family, I was privileged enough not to have that realization until I graduated from college and started to crumple under the unrelenting weight of it.