What is the reason for your depression / suicide?

[SadGirl]

What makes you want to die?

 

[ShadowOfTheDay]

Life is an unjust, uncaring carnival show. Lions eat gazelles. Never the other way around. "The big fish eat the little ones."

 

[salvation]

I am short, aspergers, weird looking, friendless

Also severe bullying

 

[SadGirl]

Life is an unjust, uncaring carnival show. Lions eat gazelles. Never the other way around. "The big fish eat the little ones."

I have a hard time understanding why everything is so unfair, some people have a lot, some have little, some have nothing, not even what to eat. What's the point of this whole shit?

I am short, aspergers, weird looking, friendless

Also severe bullying

I'm understand, I'm sorry :(

 

[HellinHeaven]

Suffer from a traumatic childhood. Until now had no relationship or sex, because I cannot deal with emotional closeness.

 

[anuglymale]

A number of things tbh

I am short, aspergers, weird looking, friendless

Also severe bullying

this + poor

 

[Kyrok]

1) chronic pain; 2) bad decisions which have undermined my hopes for anything better; 3) lifelong depression/anxiety.

 

[Deltrus]

I'm still not sure if I'm commiting suicide. I'l have to wait a few years at least so my brother can finish university.

I have chronic fatigue syndrome which causes extreme fatigue 24/7, the fatigue feels horrible. And I very often have terrible sensations in my head/gut/jaw/legs. And I have tinnitus but that honestly isn't that bad.

I guess you can say most of my issues driving me to suicide are sensory.

Just imagining living 4+ more years makes me shudder.

I have sound sensitivity too, so for me to live an additional 3 years I have to find a relatively quiet apartment, which may be difficult.

 

[elizabeth.luck]

I don't deserve to live.

 

[seekingoblivion]

Lifelong feelings of inadequacy and worthlessness and patheticness. Self hatred to the max for all I am and do including hating myself. Financial instability. Inability to form meaningful relationships. Inability to form ANY romantic relationships. Inability to be normal. Oversensitive. Way underconfident. Generally stupid etc. The list goes on.

 

[Jodes]

I'm useless

 

[Jodes]

People suck

 

[TheFinalCountdown]

My life isn't where it's it's supposed to be. I've had chances to live a life most people only dream of and I've blown it. I can't cope with that kind of regret

 

[throwaway777]

i hate myself

 

[Addy92]

Every time I I get back up and start enjoying life I get shot back down by those I trusted. Mental health support here isn't available.

 

[sonax22]

1-reminaning effects of childhood bullying,left me unable to do well with people and basic relationships.
2-the life I'm living is not for me,I have different hopes and aspirations that I cannot act upon because of where I live. What I enjoy and what I want is unacceptable in the society I'm in..which is one of the reasons I'm depressed,like living someone else's life,not able to live yours.
3- I have bad anxiety which stops me from doing basic human things.
4-I basically just lost the will to live.and I accept that life is not for me.

 

[maomin]

I am a useless member of society, a burden to the people around me. I am also clinically retarded.

 

[Queer_Kenny]

I don't want to live in a world being consumed by so much hate, and I see it getting worse every day. Death will be such a relief!

 

[namelessX8]

I've spent my entire life lonely. Even though I interact with people, I still feel lonely. And I've spent my entire life manipulating equations I don't understand to reach conclusions I don't understand. Just bored of life. Perpetually tired.

 

[Druvian]

Victim of childhood sexual abuse, and years of physical abuse. Now I have severe ptsd and depression. Dont see any reason to keep going

 

[Nihil]

~Transgender discrimination in a world of growing hate can make survival really hard, especially with discrimination in housing and employment.
~Unemployment, and having to continue being something I'm not, in order to have a place to live and get a job doing something I don't want to do.
~Crippling student debt that won't be payed off until I'm 50.
~Lost nearly everything due to a previous relationship that ended in an absolute disaster.
~Continual worrying over food and shelter.
~Multiple childhood traumas, including near-death experiences and severe bullying.
~Major depression can at times make suicide look so very appealing, especially when ideation flares up.
~Previous suicide attempts and aborted attempts.
~Have lost the will/drive to really do anything anymore.
~Missed out on life and continue missing out on it by being something I'm not doing something I hate in order to stay alive. If I try to be me, homelessness and likely death will await me.

As far as why I still keep going, it's mainly just due to a few promises to like three loved ones, enjoying the simple things (food, water, breathing, nature-watching), strong survival instinct, and fear over how painful dying could be. I know my life is fucked and that I'd be better off dead, yet...yeah...I just keep going I guess. That said though...

 

[CoolGuy9]

I'm a lonely degenerate that can't feel happiness.

 

[misos9]

I just hate my self I can't do anything I am a burden to my family
the emptiness inside me just eating me up
i don't have any talent, my life just painful

 

[CoolGuy9]

I just hate my self I can't do anything I am a burden to my family
the emptiness inside me just eating me up
i don't have any talent, my life just painful

I didn't know I had a clone!

 

[aspx]

1- A lot of things that happened when I was 10yo and at this point I'm too scared to even remember it.
2- I stopped living about 6 years go, I haven't done anything great. Also, that's how long I'm having suicidal thoughts.
3- People in general. I don't want to deal with other people and/or be a part of anything related with other people.
4- I'm barely functioning, I think in some time soon I won't be able to do things, like a normal person would, that now I consider normal, like showering or programming.
5- Nothing gives me pleasure anymore. I'm living with this for a long time, but only now it's becoming a problem.
6- I've tried seeing a psychiatrist once, he prescribed some meds and after I asking about changing (because of the side effects), he didn't say anything.
7- I keep remembering social conversations that I had a long time ago. I don't know how to explain it, but it feels bad.

I'm alive now just because I don't want my parents to see me dead.

 

[Life sucks]

Many reasons that I can't list them, wide reasons ranging from philosophical ideas to mental problems and pain and suffering.

 

[StillWaiting]

I guess I become depressed when I realized i am going to be trapped in the rat race.

 

[zen]

1- A lot of things that happened when I was 10yo and at this point I'm too scared to even remember it.
2- I stopped living about 6 years go, I haven't done anything great. Also, that's how long I'm having suicidal thoughts.
3- People in general. I don't want to deal with other people and/or be a part of anything related with other people.
4- I'm barely functioning, I think in some time soon I won't be able to do things, like a normal person would, that now I consider normal, like showering or programming.
5- Nothing gives me pleasure anymore. I'm living with this for a long time, but only now it's becoming a problem.
6- I've tried seeing a psychiatrist once, he prescribed some meds and after I asking about changing (because of the side effects), he didn't say anything.
7- I keep remembering social conversations that I had a long time ago. I don't know how to explain it, but it feels bad.

I'm alive now just because I don't want my parents to see me dead.

so what do You do all day?..Parents kniw you want to die?

 

[Jean Améry]

I'm still not sure if I'm commiting suicide. I'l have to wait a few years at least so my brother can finish university.

I have chronic fatigue syndrome which causes extreme fatigue 24/7, the fatigue feels horrible. And I very often have terrible sensations in my head/gut/jaw/legs. And I have tinnitus but that honestly isn't that bad.

I guess you can say most of my issues driving me to suicide are sensory.

Just imagining living 4+ more years makes me shudder.

I have sound sensitivity too, so for me to live an additional 3 years I have to find a relatively quiet apartment, which may be difficult.

I'm sorry to hear about your troubles. Postponing your suicide in order to help your brother succeed in life is incredibly brave and altruistic. I know from experience having to deal with others' suicidal behaviour while at university is a recepy for disaster. I did not even finish my bachelor's.

 

[Final Escape]

Perhaps the thing that pisses me off the most is that we live in a system that wants to enslave us. The education in our youth may or may not be very good. Maybe u were lucky and weren't subjected to the government schools and actually learned necessary life skills early. If u weren't fortunate to be educated well early in life, u often make unwise choices which leave u more enslaved by the system. You may have gotten yourself into student loan debt or had a kid out of wedlock. You could be a victim of psychiatry when u were actually looking for help but convinced u need to be medicated. Sorry this is kind of off topic but it's one reason it's tough to live under this type of backwards society. The perverse incentives that disadvantage people are so many.