Anxieyote
Sobriety over everything else • 30 • Midwest
- Mar 24, 2021
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The very worst thing that makes you dread waking up every morning.
You're such a Lovecraft fangirl."No new horror can be more terrible than the daily torture of the commonplace"
I'm glad I can still fangirl over something.You're such a Lovecraft fangirl.
I can't stand the sight of my family. Or people acting peppy at work. Having conversations is torture because of what a charade they are. I have nothing to say to normal people.
Same. The more miserable I am, the worse at socializing I am. I guess that's obvious. Being miserable is a full-time job and doesn't leave you much energy for anything else. I can usually pull off like 1-2 sentences but after that I'm out of there If I do have to pretend interest in something for longer than that, I just end up feeling dirty for the utter nonsense I have to say to keep a conversation going. I wish it was possible to just be honest with people.I think I've actually gotten worse at it over the years, and I can't help but give off vibes of frustration and impatience with almost everyone I meet.
If I could bill for being miserable I'd drain the national currency reserveBeing miserable is a full-time job
I wish it was possible to just be quiet with people.I wish it was possible to just be honest with people.
If I could be honest with them I'd tell them to keep quiet. :)I wish it was possible to just be quiet with people.
Normal people are actually very triggering. They seem to be navigating through life somewhat effortlessly, and seeing them so unbothered is a sight to behold.
@AnxiousSchizoid & @deflationary, you guys would really want to stab the "surface me" to death. Or maybe you wouldn't; normies are always under the impression that I'm laughing with them when I'm actually laughing at them. It's amusing how predictably dumb they are & how easy it is to get them to brag about their pathetic little lives & "achievements" for your entertainment. Of course, I don't have to deal with too many of them on a daily basis, which is a great luxury. Better to make less money than suffer brain damage from working alongside them.simply seeing other people move through life with energy and purpose. It disgusts me.
Are you good at blending in with them then? I try, but people can always tell something is a little "off". I don't get invited to parties, or even group chats. Just from the way I talk and act, people can sense I'm an imposter. I give off Mark Zuckerberg vibes, where it seems like I'm a lizard trying to pass off as a real human.@AnxiousSchizoid & @deflationary, you guys would really want to stab the "surface me" to death. Or maybe you wouldn't; normies are always under the impression that I'm laughing with them when I'm actually laughing at them. It's amusing how predictably dumb they are & how easy it is to get them to brag about their pathetic little lives & "achievements" for your entertainment.
I do wonder how many people I've met in my life that I could have actually somewhat related to if we had just shared stuff about ourselves beyond the surface level. I'm sure there's been one or two.@AnxiousSchizoid & @deflationary, you guys would really want to stab the "surface me" to death. Or maybe you wouldn't; normies are always under the impression that I'm laughing with them when I'm actually laughing at them.
Are you good at blending in with them then? I try, but people can always tell something is a little "off".