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anorexicmustrope

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Nov 26, 2025
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Something very primal in me stopped me from drinking the SN when I had everything ready, I don't understand why I felt so much impending doom and sudden desire for life after being so resolved. What is stopping y'all from doing it? I reckon most if not everyone here would immediately press a button to dissappear and go painlessly.
 
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Dreamwalker

Dreamwalker

Time To Wake Up
Jan 21, 2026
31
Dying is probably the most monumental choice you'll ever make. It's literally putting the power of life and death in your hands and transitioning to a state of non-existence, whatever that may look like or not look like. Don't beat yourself up for having a survival instinct !!
You will make the right decision in the end
 
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Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
51
Something very primal in me stopped me from drinking the SN when I had everything ready, I don't understand why I felt so much impending doom and sudden desire for life after being so resolved. What is stopping y'all from doing it? I reckon most if not everyone here would immediately press a button to dissappear and go painlessly.
Time. I have around 3-4 months left to live. If something doesn't occur, I'm going. If it does… that still depends.
 
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thefarter

thefarter

i don’t smoke
Dec 10, 2025
103
honestly just waiting for Ramadan to be over. and then spend Eid with my family and then drink SN a few days later.

i think that's what i did last time. :3c
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,053
I only continue to suffer in this existence as I'm trapped in this horrific reality wheee dying painlessly is a crime with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I always suffer so unbearably from being denied the option to just never suffer again, to me anti-suicide is just so evil.

There's so much terrible cruelty in how humans impose this existence in the first place that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured yet do all they can to force others to suffer and make it so they are tortured in this existence for as long as possible. Denying painless guaranteed death is such a terrible, dreadful unacceptable crime, I'd just never wish for the abomination of existence, to me existence is such a cruel mistake that only ever causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me only non-existence is positive, for me ceasing to exist would be the positive solution to find peace from the torture of existing.
 

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