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Rorschach

Rorschach

The sadness will last forever.
Oct 23, 2020
33
Answering my question: I don't know.

Life has been a curious experience for me, but also a painful one. I'm 21 years old and looking at my history I haven't had great achievements in my life. Perhaps my biggest fear is turning 30 and realizing that I'm still in the same limbo and that I didn't have great achievements or something I can be proud of. But being honest with you guys, I don't have willpower and self-esteem to achieve anything. In my head nothing makes sense or is worth it.

I'm diagnosed with depression since 2019 and borderline personality disorder in this year. I only found out that I was depressed when I was able to experience a great happiness once in a lifetime. But actually ,I've been depressed for my whole life, but I haven't been able to perceive (for me, I just was a normal guy and that was what life was all about). The future scares me, I hope I'm not here to see it
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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The way I see it, life is pointless. All we are doing is waiting around for death, our only true purpose is to die. Life is completely unnecessary, as we were all perfectly fine not existing until we were forced to live. I see no point in continuing my life, it would just be decades of suffering and misery. I do not live, I just exist. Death is freedom and it is true peace. It is a horrible feeling to dread the future, I am also scared. I wish you the best, I hope you find peace.
 
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Ch92921

Ch92921

The call of the void
Dec 29, 2018
909
Its pointless, depressing and painful.
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,873
I guess life has different overall themes to it depending on who you are and what your experience ends up being dominated by. For me, the overarching theme is undoubtedly suffering and discontent. But I often hear other people singing praises about how wonderful life is, so the range of different possible answers is probably vast. I can respect differing views about it but I can not agree with them.
 
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