• Hey Guest,

    We wanted to share a quick update with the community.

    Our public expense ledger is now live, allowing anyone to see how donations are used to support the ongoing operation of the site.

    👉 View the ledger here

    Over the past year, increased regulatory pressure in multiple regions like UK OFCOM and Australia's eSafety has led to higher operational costs, including infrastructure, security, and the need to work with more specialized service providers to keep the site online and stable.

    If you value the community and would like to help support its continued operation, donations are greatly appreciated. If you wish to donate via Bank Transfer or other options, please open a ticket.

    Donate via cryptocurrency:

    Bitcoin (BTC):
    Ethereum (ETH):
    Monero (XMR):
dhk96

dhk96

Experienced
May 8, 2018
234
Like many, I'm just a coward.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: MudFlap, Aknu132 and Bishop
P

PanaxMan

Water fasting until death (Currently homeless)
Apr 11, 2023
679
If you're not dead yet why are still here? Or what was the reason you lived for before u became like this.
Forced to cuz my body and heart keep chugging along
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: MudFlap, Aknu132 and Bishop
star.trip

star.trip

Experienced
Oct 6, 2024
260
The reason I keep on living is that I'm a coward, a mistake of nature; I'm broken inside, and it's my own fault. I'm not cut out for life
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
  • Aww..
Reactions: dhk96, MudFlap, Bishop and 1 other person
Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
592
Because I havent lost all hope yet. And I cant decide on a method
 
  • Like
Reactions: MudFlap and Bishop
EscThisPlace321

EscThisPlace321

I survived the eclipse....
Apr 4, 2026
39
i dunno. I guess i feel like I can still somehow make a decent life/existence for myself....and hopefully one day I'll have alot of money in the future. That's what I'm hoping...
 
  • Like
Reactions: MudFlap
AnxiousLife

AnxiousLife

scared of people
Jan 13, 2025
79
I'm scared to die and also I for some reason want to experience some good things, even if they may be pretty rare for me
 
  • Love
  • Like
Reactions: MudFlap and luv-Moths
U

usernameless

Member
May 15, 2026
18
I have no reason. My unconscious body just carries on.
 
  • Like
  • Hugs
Reactions: TwistedNightmares, singingcrow and w8forme
singingcrow

singingcrow

Student
Jul 7, 2024
197
hurting the people who love me but i also want to travel a bit

unfortunately i am broke so idk if i can be bothered saving. i have a family holiday coming up in jan but i'm not sure if i can stick around
 
  • Aww..
  • Like
Reactions: SleeplessAndSad and MudFlap
MudFlap

MudFlap

Emo
May 19, 2026
4
Family and friends. I can't say I'd like to be alive especially not right now but the thought of the people that count on me and the many promises I'd break keep me grounded.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: dhk96 and Lost Magic
Lost Magic

Lost Magic

Illuminated
May 5, 2020
3,254
Stubborness, survival Instinct and silly distractions.
 
  • Hugs
  • Like
Reactions: dhk96 and MudFlap
seasaltbutter

seasaltbutter

♡ gluten
Apr 11, 2026
16
1 more last thing to do and i will end things on my term.
 
nosense-user

nosense-user

hanging myself on june 9 2026
May 19, 2026
32
My mother would be sad if i died also im scared of nothingess after death
 
  • Love
Reactions: troubled_puppet and MudFlap
KnightOfSwords

KnightOfSwords

see you, space cowboy
Oct 16, 2025
41
My mom doesn't deserve this pain. Also I don't want to abandon my pet, I think she'll miss me so much
 
  • Love
Reactions: troubled_puppet and MudFlap
Lamentice

Lamentice

Schizoid
Mar 27, 2023
224
I'm not entirely hopeless: still curious, still wishful, still wondering if something might change, still trying new things.
 
  • Love
Reactions: MudFlap
skyisblue

skyisblue

Member
May 18, 2026
9
i still have some hope. also too scared to do it myself
 
  • Love
Reactions: MudFlap
Soutaiseiriron

Soutaiseiriron

Clueless
Apr 5, 2023
165
I want to experience love. I want to love and be loved, I want to be someone's first choice and I want them to be mine. I feel so sad that I will die not experiencing that, and I think I can find someone even if it's not gonna last forever or even a long time. I don't know if it's worth the trouble though. I have a lot of things I need to work on, I don't want to be a bad partner who just ruins someone's life. I also think this is not such a good idea to live just for this. I don't really know if it's worth doing, but I really want to.
 
nitrogenous

nitrogenous

Just wanna break free of all suffering
Dec 26, 2025
299
I've just lost all of my reasons to live 2 days ago and so now I don't care about anything anymore.. I'm like a walking zombie just waiting for me to do it…
 
Sakura.

Sakura.

NienawidzÄ™ siebie.
May 1, 2024
263
Family and friends. I can't say I'd like to be alive especially not right now but the thought of the people that count on me and the many promises I'd break keep me grounded.

Hi, MudFlap! Today is your wonderful day! Happy birthday! :happy:

tenor.gif
 
  • Love
Reactions: MudFlap
meiherasayuri

meiherasayuri

idiot
Nov 27, 2025
112
Fear of what lies beyond death and cowardice
 
boyafraid

boyafraid

Is life over yet?
Oct 27, 2025
114
If you're not dead yet why are still here? Or what was the reason you lived for before u became like this.
I don't have my new method yet...

I've already tried 13 times with other methods but they didn't work out ):

I've been depressed and suicidal since 14. It wasn't until I turned 18 that I started looking for plans to ctb
 
returntothestars

returntothestars

Wanderer
Jan 18, 2025
16
I'm not ready to officially CTB yet. My affairs aren't in order, and there are people I care too much about. There are cats to love, a new Hunger Games movie to catch in a few months, and shared moments with loved ones to enjoy.
 

Similar threads