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catmom13
My brain is broken
- Apr 29, 2020
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I have bipolar 2, and as long as I can remember I would easily pick up hobbies that I show the slightest interest in and abandon them after I've reached an intermediate level.
Somehow, baking and cooking stuck. I have older cousins(who were 1 generation older) who allowed me to help in cooking and use a knife as early as 8 behind my parents' back. I taught myself how to bake at age 13. I'm 28 now.
When I feel a build up of heightened anxiety(which is often, and even worse now), I bake. Yesterday morning I tested three entirely different bread recipes and made them all by hand. I feel that the attention I pay to the measurements, shaping, and just the feel of the dough gives me peace. The ensuing exhaustion feels earned. I also document all my baking trials in a spreadsheet so I can track progress and make changes if I don't get the desired results.
I also cook dinner almost every night--depending on complexity it helps tide me over until the next time I can bake.
So, what activity helps you get through your day?
Somehow, baking and cooking stuck. I have older cousins(who were 1 generation older) who allowed me to help in cooking and use a knife as early as 8 behind my parents' back. I taught myself how to bake at age 13. I'm 28 now.
When I feel a build up of heightened anxiety(which is often, and even worse now), I bake. Yesterday morning I tested three entirely different bread recipes and made them all by hand. I feel that the attention I pay to the measurements, shaping, and just the feel of the dough gives me peace. The ensuing exhaustion feels earned. I also document all my baking trials in a spreadsheet so I can track progress and make changes if I don't get the desired results.
I also cook dinner almost every night--depending on complexity it helps tide me over until the next time I can bake.
So, what activity helps you get through your day?