
narval
Enlightened
- Jan 22, 2020
- 1,188
Perhaps i'm in hell. This life is getting worse along the years and nothing seems to get better. The future doesn't looks better.
When i was child and i can't do anything (i had no control of my life), mi life was shit because bad luck and shit happens. Now my life is shit because ME.
perhaps, in a past life, for random reason, i went to hell. In order to preventing resignation or getting used to this shit i suffered a memory reset and now i'm in a eternal loop of shitty life by my fault, agonic life (with or without suicide), death, memory reset and start again in the same point.
How to find out if i'm in the real life and not in a simulation? Lik matrix. Like a tailor-made hell. I don't have any knowledge or tool for that. Neither god, spirit, extraplanar thing or lovecraftian horror answered me. And probably i won't wake up or break the loop.
Shit...
When i was child and i can't do anything (i had no control of my life), mi life was shit because bad luck and shit happens. Now my life is shit because ME.
perhaps, in a past life, for random reason, i went to hell. In order to preventing resignation or getting used to this shit i suffered a memory reset and now i'm in a eternal loop of shitty life by my fault, agonic life (with or without suicide), death, memory reset and start again in the same point.
How to find out if i'm in the real life and not in a simulation? Lik matrix. Like a tailor-made hell. I don't have any knowledge or tool for that. Neither god, spirit, extraplanar thing or lovecraftian horror answered me. And probably i won't wake up or break the loop.
Shit...