Discussion What, if anything would it take for you to be content with life to the point where you decide not to CTB? (even unrealistically)

[WorthlessTrash]

I won't waste time with mine since I've made it very clear in the past, but how about you?

 

[jodes2]

Get the depression under control. Life might not be great even without depression, but it's the driver of my suicidal thoughts and impulses. I think I need to just focus on music and keep looking for better medication, I might try psychedelics one day if my gf lets me, a lot of people have had success with that

 

[foreverhopeless87]

A time machine to the past. I used to be very happy.

 

[Dot]

A time machine to the past. I used to be very happy.

Sme
A 'do-ovr'

 

[Fennec123]

I guess i'd have to rewind the past few years (since i moved to Norway) and do things differently... make different life choices... maybe not even decide to move to Norway in the first place.....

I'd also not date my abusive ex from 2019 and then maybe things would have gone better with the boyfriend i met in 2020.

But realistically... i'd be happy if i magically got a job and managed to fix everything with my ex and live happily ever after

 

[conflagration]

Fix my anxiety (especially social anxiety) and problems with sleeping, fix my oversensitivity to everything.

 

[MyLifeisHell]

No point dwelling on fantasies.

 

[Tesha]

My daily flashbacks of being raped stop. They underline all the other issues I have.

 

[enviro400mmc]

Idk, I don't really understand myself that well but I feel like some kind of sense of self-worth or that my life is worth living. I have managed to not be suicidal when things in my life are going well but that is always brief and temporary and makes any subsequent pain worse.

 

[Pentobarbital_Plz]

I try to imagine a Life I would enjoy, but I'm always led back to the same depressing mindset:

I can't forget about the past.
I can't stop stressing about the future.
I can't really enjoy any moment.

It's really hard to put it into words.

I don't think I can enjoy being a physical organism stuck in a society…I'm ugly and gross and useless. Everything seems redundant. I don't contribute anything and I don't really want to as I don't support this species.

How I feel is irrelevant. Idek why I type here…I'm about to cry now. I can't even express how I feel. I just don't CARE about all of this worldly stuff!

Life would have to become surreal and magical. It would have to be a total fantasy dreamland—a kind of experience I can't even fathom up.

There would be no hunger. No body to take care of. No pain. No memories. No society. No opinions. Just bliss and fantastical beauty.

See? It doesn't make any sense…

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Just give me somewhere to live. It's not happening though.

 

[Misery99]

A time machine to the past. I used to be very happy.

Wish I had a time machine too. It would help me to correct all the mistakes I did in the past. But oh... that would be only in my fantasy

Fix my anxiety (especially social anxiety) and problems with sleeping, fix my oversensitivity to everything.

Social anxiety and oversensitivity is a major problem that I have too. It ruined my life.

 

[HermitLonerGuy]

actually get a normal penis.
i dont even care for it to be big, i just wana feel like a normal man and have a bulge and not worry about it being too small and always worry about explaining it etc.

 

[-Raven's Night-]

if I'm not autistic or have been diagnosed earlier in childhood instead of waiting for it to completely isolate me, belong to nowhere, and now have formed such a deep belief that I'll ctb at that certain time.

 

[outrider567]

That would be impossible for me--Girlfriend dead and now my brother also, nobody left

 

[Helplessturtle79]

- My family accepting me as trans
- Being somewhat normal looking.
- Having a job that payed me enough to live on my own

 

[Anonymus]

Considering that I have not been able to live life due to my mental problems... if you balance my mind and cure all the physical problems I have, of course yes, I am a dreamer with many illusions.

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Tenint en compte que no he sabut viure la vida degut als meus problemes mentals... si m'equilibres la ment i em cures tots els problemes físics que tinc, es clar que si, sóc un somiatruïtes amb moltes il·lusions.

 

[Ai-chan]

A do over would be nice

Either that or the financial stability to move out of my parent's home without looking back and the executive functioning to actualy be able to survive on my own. Not having emotional ties to them anymore would be great too.

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

An entirely new brain and body.

 

[StolenLife]

If I rewinded until september 2019 and did things differently it could have been an alright life.

 

[makethepainstop]

I wish,(like we all do here), I could have had a much different life. This be a bit much for sensitive souls here, but you did ask.What I'd want is greater size strength, blond hair and blue eyes. But I'd also want in my family group a very alpha male type dad, say special forces, or Navy seal. I'd want a big brother too. I would want dad to be the type of man that when I become a uppity, rebellious, smart mouthed teenager, he would er, umm, how to put this.....whip my ass. I don't mean a spanking with a belt. No no gentle reader, things like: #1. Son, did you take one of my beers? No sir! Dad I drank four of your beers. Son Im gonna have to punish you! I'd be like dad I know you love me, so I understand I was a bad boy. I know I got it comming. Dad would be saying son, let's go to your room. Yes sir dad! (I'll spare our sensitive readers the details of my punishment, tho I think you can guess what I mean, I did say ass whopping). #2. Son your school called and told me you skipped school last friday. Did you skip school? DON'T lie to me BOY! I'd be please DAD! No please DAD! Then he would slap me open handed, splitting my lip, and making me hit the wall behind me and slide to the floor landing on my ass.Then dad who I know loves me and I would have no doubt about it, would hoist my skinny ass of the floor... Pin me against the wall with one hand a continue slapping hell out of me until I had a bloody nose, a couple of bruise's on my face. Then dad would tell me go clean your face up NOW! I'd be sniff, sniff, and I'd go clean up. Then when I came back out dad would tell me how much he loves me, and it was for my own good! #3. Son were you and Bobby,(big brother also badass like dad), smoking marijuana? I'd be No SIR! Dad if your lieing to me, your only gonna make it worse.! Then dad would holler, Bobby get your ass down here right now! Then once big bro, dad and I are together... Dad I smell marijuana! You boys been smoking reefer in my house? Both boys, "NO SIR DAD!" Dad would say Bobby, let me see your eyes up close. Then he'd ask me the same thing......Dad would tell Bobby, you may go. Then he would tell me son, your eyes are very red! That is gonna be too bad for you. You smoked reefer in my house and you lied to me! I would be like yes sir I did, both. Then my big brother would come down from upstairs, holding a baggie filled with green leafy ness! Bobby would tell Dad, Look what I found in his room! I'd tell Bobby you asshole dad's gonna kill me! Yep that would get a real good ass whipping from my loving dad. Well maybe I got problems, but to me a dad should put his boys in their place. Reckon I like toxic masculinity, but boy's raised rough like that do better! Maybe next life I'll get the right kind of dad and family for ME!

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case I could never want to exist no matter the circumstances. Existence is simply a pointless and useless burden and I would prefer to permanently rest than to be trapped in this world. I simply despise life and I don't see existing as being anything of value or is something appealing in any way. I find it tiring simply having to exist and I wish to not be aware of anything. Like why would anyone want to exist, that is the thing that I could never understand. The reality is that not everyone is meant for this world and only the thought of being permanently forgotten about comforts me.

 

[GasMonkey]

Becoming a young Chad (very good looking, tall, dark, handsome, full head of air, athletic, optimal health) and a couple million dollars.

 

[Doctors HATE them]

Literally nothing unfortunately. It's always been my goal since I was like 8 to die. I've always had fantasies of dying. I don't believe anything is "meant to be" but me being dead is as close to "meant to be" as you can get. Even if I could be happy I'd still just prefer to rest forever

 

[Himalayan]

Sudden cardiac arrest, or a good job.

 

[thedevillily]

If I had a meaningful job I was actually good at, I might be able to stick it out. I have failed in my career to the point where I feel like I don't really deserve to be alive since I add nothing to society. I don't even need to be liked by anyone, just would like to contribute something of value that would allow me to earn enough money to survive. Fucking pathetic that I can't even do that.

 

[stermc]

In my case I could never want to exist no matter the circumstances. Existence is simply a pointless and useless burden and I would prefer to permanently rest than to be trapped in this world. I simply despise life and I don't see existing as being anything of value or is something appealing in any way. I find it tiring simply having to exist and I wish to not be aware of anything. Like why would anyone want to exist, that is the thing that I could never understand. The reality is that not everyone is meant for this world and only the thought of being permanently forgotten about comforts me.

that's exactly how I feel. you explained it so well.

 

[Conker]

Being teleported to the real Earth, without ticks & amnesia...

This world does not register at all. It's such a horrific blurry nightmare that nothing feels organic outside of our human souls. For my own personal "lifetimes" I don't care how lucky the RNG can get. Just want to feel like I'm finally home, away from all of these borderline NPC retards & their creepy disgusting pathetic "leaders".

Fucking agony to have gotten trapped here.

 

[DeathBecomesMe_2021]

If I had full physical health, good mental health and a deadline whereby I die aged 30 I certainly would make the most of life. I'd try to enjoy every second before my deadline.

 

[𖣴 nadia 𖣴]

A cure for cPTSD, anxiety, depression and insomnia, my memories of being raped and sexually, physically and emotionally abused as a child wiped, different parents, healthier romantic relationships and a meaningful job.