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robertJMP
Idk what to do with my life
- Dec 25, 2022
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Since I was a child I have been forced to study piano by my father, he was always obsessed with me being his perfect son, so he made me study more than 3 hours a day with no time to play or do other things that I would have clearly liked to do, this made me antisocial and no chance to make friends, but that's another story.
nowadays i can play the piano magnificently and it is something i really like to do, i usually go to play recitals without any problem and i can make some profit playing, but every time i play the piano when i finish playing i can't help but feel a terrible hatred towards the hobby and think that i probably would have had a different life with less stress and pressure, to that I add the hatred I always accumulated towards my father and relating the instrument to him (he is a music teacher) and I don't know how to really feel about it, on one hand it is something I want to keep doing, but on the other hand I want to quit and never play again, at the end of the day it makes me happy, but it also makes me go through a lot of pain.
I really don't know what to write to add to the story, but I think that's enough, thanks for reading and sorry if my English is not perfect.
nowadays i can play the piano magnificently and it is something i really like to do, i usually go to play recitals without any problem and i can make some profit playing, but every time i play the piano when i finish playing i can't help but feel a terrible hatred towards the hobby and think that i probably would have had a different life with less stress and pressure, to that I add the hatred I always accumulated towards my father and relating the instrument to him (he is a music teacher) and I don't know how to really feel about it, on one hand it is something I want to keep doing, but on the other hand I want to quit and never play again, at the end of the day it makes me happy, but it also makes me go through a lot of pain.
I really don't know what to write to add to the story, but I think that's enough, thanks for reading and sorry if my English is not perfect.