What hurts the most in this life isn't pain or trauma, it's the lack of love

[Cin]

I know living the way I have has turned me into an unrelatable freak. I get a pit in my chest from the loneliness when I'm near other people, I know I'm not like them, they insult me when they think I can't hear them, they'd happily tuck me away into a mental ward. I don't want to get away from pain anymore. I just want somebody I can speak to honestly and feel like I'm allowed to stay with but it seems unattainable.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

I know living the way I have has turned me into an unrelatable freak. I get a pit in my chest from the loneliness when I'm near other people, I know I'm not like them, they insult me when they think I can't hear them, they'd happily tuck me away into a mental ward. I don't want to get away from pain anymore. I just want somebody I can speak to honestly and feel like I'm allowed to stay with but it seems unattainable.

Maybe you can try to get a therapist, they can help you with navigating how to deal with your predicament.

I wish you all the best OP with your decision.

 

[ggetout33]

Yeah, my life is kinda just alright. Just okay. But the lack of any close, intimate love, and the lack of trusting others to not betray me (on my part, mostly) makes me not wanna wake up tomorrow. I say to myself I'll die single so why bother.

 

[The anhedonic one]

I would rather have the pain of my mental illness, PTSD, and existential crisis any day than suffer the pain of loneliness.

Loneliness is harrowing.
I especially hate this time of year when everyone is outside in the summer. Seeing happy families and couples everywhere just
reinforces the despair inside my heart that I am alone in this world, and crushes my soul

 

[90starve]

I know living the way I have has turned me into an unrelatable freak. I get a pit in my chest from the loneliness when I'm near other people, I know I'm not like them, they insult me when they think I can't hear them, they'd happily tuck me away into a mental ward. I don't want to get away from pain anymore. I just want somebody I can speak to honestly and feel like I'm allowed to stay with but it seems unattainable.

i am also alone - thinking of you and wishing you peace <3

 

[FuneralCry]

The unfortunate reality is that you just cannot trust people in this world, humans very often just create more suffering but I get that loneliness is painful for many. It's such a horrible world we exist in where people suffer all through no fault of their own, but anyway I wish you the best.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

Unfortunately OP those humans who treat you like that are selfish and unkind and what I can say to you is the greatest love that you can get on earth is self love. The love you give yourself will be the greatest unconditional love that you would have ever experienced.

I wish you light and healing with the what you are going through and wish you the best with whatever you end up deciding for yourself in the future.

 

[meandthebirds]

practice self love. accept yourself, try to enjoy your own company. this could also result in you improving as a person, which could attract more friends and/or possible relationships.

in either case, i hope you'll feel less alone asap. nobody should suffer this kind of pain, the world can be so cruel sometimes. wishing u luck and healing <3

 

[kaleidoscopedreams]

Most people in the world don't have the emotional intelligence to understand unless pointed out. Loneliness is something that will eat away at the soul & leave the shell if you left to rot. I wish you luck op