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What happend after your CTB failed

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florasanadam

Life is a Joke
Mar 20, 2023
7
I tried suicied for many times and I failed it. Some of them I couldn't do, some of them the gun didn't explode, and some of themI don't know why too I didn't die. After the last one I just stoped the triying. I just give up on this and after that so many things changed in my mind. Im not trying to die anymore but Im not trying to live too. Im feeling more free with this I dont know why. Im just wondering your feelings.

What do you feel or did you feel after failing CTB?
 
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dyn00ss

dyn00ss

Member
Mar 3, 2023
80
florasanadam said:
I tried suicied for many times and I failed it. Some of them I couldn't do, some of them the gun didn't explode, and some of themI don't know why too I didn't die. After the last one I just stoped the triying. I just give up on this and after that so many things changed in my mind. Im not trying to die anymore but Im not trying to live too. Im feeling more free with this I dont know why. Im just wondering your feelings.

What do you feel or did you feel after failing CTB?
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I don't remember very well because I had so many attempts and lately I don't even think much about it, like being so disappointed I get angry with myself, but once I fainted and failed in a method I woke up and felt despair and fear, but not afraid of death itself or suicide, after that I wished so much that it had worked, but I don't care much because I can have other opportunities
 
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Iamtired

Experienced
Sep 30, 2023
208
florasanadam said:
I tried suicied for many times and I failed it. Some of them I couldn't do, some of them the gun didn't explode, and some of themI don't know why too I didn't die. After the last one I just stoped the triying. I just give up on this and after that so many things changed in my mind. Im not trying to die anymore but Im not trying to live too. Im feeling more free with this I dont know why. Im just wondering your feelings.

What do you feel or did you feel after failing CTB?
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The gun didn't explode?!!
 
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florasanadam

Life is a Joke
Mar 20, 2023
7
Iamtired said:
The gun didn't explode?!!
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Yes, I don't know why, I always take care of my gun and there is no problem with it. I think that happened bc of my bad luck.
 
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