Discussion What feeling for you is worse then being suicidal?

[SHThrowAway213]

For me it's alcohol cravings
I know how to handle the suicidal thoughts, how to deal with them, how intense they get...but nothing I've ever experienced can get as bad as the cravings do. .
It's literally the worst feeling in the world, even worse then I realized I survived my last attempt.
I'd rather be suicidal again then deal with these goddam cravings. At least I've never experienced withdrawal symptoms. I just want to get drunk.

 

[Mortalscreensaver]

For me there's no worse feeling. I've had alcohol issues too but I'm too depressed to even want to drink. I can't imagine one overpowering the other

 

[Kvotheloner]

The pain in my chest from anxiety and the thought of having to socialize or have a relationship with someone is agonizing

 

[Mortalscreensaver]

I miss being able to be genuinely connect with people and contribute to relationships

 

[Intelligent_Lobster]

Melancholy drives me fucking insane.
Melancholy drives me fucking insane.

 

[Mortalscreensaver]

Yes I'm trapped in it

Melancholy drives me fucking insane.

 

[Oblivion Lover]

The feeling when I wake up from a wonderful dream, just to realize it was not real, and now I'm back to this pathetic life. Ugh...

 

[Donewith_]

Guilt and
When someone is suffering the same as me because of me, when people are crying because of me. Its difficult.

 

[a_strange_day]

being so down that you cant even think about suicide, you just stay there for hours empty and half dead, you cant focus on anything, what you used to like seems now totally unappealing and sometimes even disgusting

 

[Mortalscreensaver]

being so down that you cant even think about suicide, you just stay there for hours empty and half dead, you cant focus on anything, what you used to like seems now totally unappealing and sometimes even disgusting

This is how I spend all my time now

 

[Kvotheloner]

being so down that you cant even think about suicide, you just stay there for hours empty and half dead, you cant focus on anything, what you used to like seems now totally unappealing and sometimes even disgusting

Move slowly through drowning waves
Going away on a strange day

 

[letmeseethedeath]

for me is my trichotillomania and gender dysphoria, but it's okay they are one of the reasons i wanna die

 

[a_strange_day]

Move slowly through drowning waves
Going away on a strange day

Then everything is gone
Forever

 

[JoeFailure]

The idea that there's nothing after this. There's no justice in that.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

I prefer being suicidal to believe that there is a false "hope" for me.

 

[TearyEyedQueen]

Extreme paranoia, when I feel everyone is out there to get me.

 

[cosmicpixiedust]

For me, it is being alone. I can be alone for a day or two and be fine, but afterwards I start getting incredibly anxious, depressed, and lonely (like, unbearably). I used to get left alone a lot at home when my mom would go to the hospital, so I think it might be a small form of PTSD.

 

[Chronicillness]

The feeling of primal fear. Like all the fear of the world gets transferred to you in an instant and you get incinerated with the screams and adrenaline of billions of suffering people.

 

[NotMeant2B]

For me, being suicidal is not that bad, I find many things to be worse than craving death. Yes, I want to die, and that makes me happy, I feel that to be somehow empowering. I feel that that one is a thought of my own, free of all society's presumptions. I am happy that life is not eternal and that I have the power to end it myself, I feel in control for once.
I have come to the realization that death isn't something to be afraid of, it's something natural and even relieving.
What I'm afraid, however, is feeling excruciating physical pain, being stripped off my liberty and my freedom, having my deepest trust broken and being humilliated. My biggest fear and pain is not being able to fulfill a happy life, and that's why I turn to suicide, as a legit option and choice of my own.
I want to add that, if we are not living a life we enjoy, why are we living at all? But that may be just me.