Help What else can I do to help push me over the edge?

[StateOfMind]

As far as I know I'm already doing everything right.
I live an unhealthy life style drink, smoke, eat take away when my crazy mother isn't cooking, watch porn, live in social isolation.
I hate autumn and winter and I definitely don't want to observer another Christmas.
It is a miracle that I'm not dead yet.

I feel one of my worst fears is coming true.
Acceptance of a miserable life and Stockholm syndrome towards my sociopathic relatives.

What else can I do to help trigger me out of existence?
Any recommendations would be greatly appreciated.

PS I have an idiot-proof method.

 

[stygal]

In the end it's up to you what helps you get in a really depressed mood. Everyone has their own triggers.
For me it's the soul crushing feeling that I never meant anything to anybody and that nothing will ever change. They literally just want me as a work-slave in this society.
Also playing the worst moments/traumas over and over in my head makes me really ready to go.

Everything aside I'm sending you some virtual hugs.

 

[262653]

Sitting still in a quiet environment and listening to my body feelings helps a lot. When I drop the unimportant nonsense I'm busying myself with all the time, I get to feel emotions. Intense, persistent, and unpleasant, reminding me that I really don't like being here. They're too much to stay with for long periods of time, so I take small steps over time instead. Today I got motivated to test and taste my SN, and make some acquirements.

 

[TripleA]

Drink whiskey or vodka

 

[Jumper Geo]

As far as I know I'm already doing everything right.
I live an unhealthy life style drink, smoke, eat take away when my crazy mother isn't cooking, watch porn, live in social isolation.
I hate autumn and winter and I definitely don't want to observer another Christmas.
It is a miracle that I'm not dead yet.

I feel one of my worst fears is coming true.
Acceptance of a miserable life and Stockholm syndrome towards my sociopathic relatives.

What else can I do to help trigger me out of existence?
Any recommendations would be greatly appreciated.

PS I have an idiot-proof method.

Mmm, I don't know I just can't put my finger on it,

 

[SmellyRat]

Realizing you'll be working until you are 70 years old or end up homeless probably without ever having a relationship or if you do it has a 50% chance to end up divorced just to die of some horrible disease anyways should do the trick.

 

[Ghost2211]

SI sucks doesn't it? It's amazing what kind of conditions we are willing to tolerate, and how even the poorest quality of life just becomes normal.

 

[SmellyRat]

Mmm, I don't know I just can't put my finger on it,

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I'll drink to that cheers

 

[Weary Soul]

I am sorry to read that you are suffering so much. It is a horrible place to be.

 

[Jumper Geo]

Realizing you'll be working until your 70 years old probably without ever having a relationship or end up divorced just to die of some horrible disease anyways should do the trick.

Have you ever thought of being a marriage counsellor or psychologist,

Cheers

Geo

 

[Jumper Geo]

Drink whiskey or vodka

Probably go with the vodka, whiskey can have a terrible effect on some people, I love it but I can't drink it as I will end up getting arrested.

Cheers

Geo

 

[StateOfMind]

Drink whiskey or vodka

When I do that I just want to stay up super late, listen to music and wake up with a hangover.
Weird thing is when I have a hangover I feel invincible and happy and thus do not want to die.

 

[SmellyRat]

When I do that I just want to stay up super late, listen to music and wake up with a hangover.
Weird thing is when I have a hangover I feel invincible and happy and thus do not want to die.

Make sure you drink some water before bed, and then you won't get a hangover.
Hangover happens when your body steals water from your brain to help your liver process the alcohol.

 

[woxihuanni]

Meet the Abomination. Attempt to copulate with her. You will shrivel and want to hang yourself.