What does your preferred method say about your personality?

[AsexualBarbieBoy]

Do you think your preferred method reflects on certain aspects of your personality? I'd love to hear how if so.

I'm personally torn between two methods. Jumping was my initial choice:
1. There's a beautiful bridge nearby surrounded by nature.
I'm generally a peaceful guy that loves beauty and nature. The area of the chosen bridge is definitely somewhere I'd love to hang out in complete silence. It seems appropriate to CTB there.

2. It's somewhat considerate
I've always been a people-pleaser who worries a lot about not harming others. By jumping into a river, I'm hoping the water will do the job of disposing of my body so that nobody has to deal with it. I certainly wouldn't jump onto concrete where someone would have to clean the mess. If I do choose this method, I will carry my ID in my pocket and will alert people in my delayed email of where I jumped in case my body washes up but I doubt it will. This is one of the highest bridges in the country and I suspect I'm going to rupture and sink when I hit the water.

3. It's expressive
I really suck at talking to people and express myself best through art (writing, drawing). Jumping would be an expression of my anguish and a show of just how desperate I am. Bridges are also quite a good metaphor for being a 'bridge' to death.

However, ever sine finding out about Sn, I've been seriously considering it too.
1. The ritual of consuming something and waiting for the effects is similar to the process of taking psychedelics and waiting for them to kick in.
The entire ritual of taking anti-emetics followed by Sn would be nothing new. I'm always experimenting with different psychedelics, opiates and dissociatives so this would be yet another one of those days. I'm so used to consuming shitloads of meds and bitter substances that I don't think SI would even kick in with Sn. I'm just habituated to the process.

2. It's non-violent
This is probably one of the biggest motivators to go with Sn. I'm not a violent person at all. Never been in a fight and am 100% more likely to compromise than argue with someone. Jumping is tempting, but it will be the most violent thing I've ever done (even if it is violence against myself). Sn just seems to align more with my more peaceful tendencies.

3. My body might be able to be used for other purposes
This ties in with being considerate. With jumping, my body goes to waste. I'm hoping that with Sn, my intact corpse will be of some use even if its just for med students to pracitce surgery on my pathetic body.

 

[Soul]

I asked a related question around here somewhere ...
Ahh yes, here it is:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/methods-as-forms-of-expression.17321/

 

[TimeToDie]

I'm a "gun nut" so that's how I came up with the shotgun method. I'm not much into shotguns, and basically never hit a clay. I much preferred handguns, though shotguns are infinitely more powerful and if one is going to shoot they definitely want power as this is not something where failure is an acceptable option.

Can't jump as I'm terrified of heights. I don't even want to climb up a ladder so I can't very well jump off a bridge. Not that pointing a loading gun at oneself is easy, in fact it has been impossible thus far. Till I found SS a couple months ago I didn't know that Nembutal was something that one could actually obtain. I was well aware of both Nembutal (which killed Marilyn Monroe) and Seconal which is killing residents of certain states right now. I also wasn't aware of SN (or the less popular SA). I am stuck, unable to live yet unable to die. Yup, life is a bitch and she just won't let go.

It seems I'm supposed to use a gun, since that is the method overwhelmingly selected by middle-aged white male gun owners. So rarely do I follow social norms like that.

 

[Death_is_Escape]

That I am Pain-averse.

 

[Rachel74]

Preferred method is N because I want it quick and no pain. Had enough pain in my life so want my death to be peaceful x

 

[Death_is_Escape]

Preferred method is N because I want it quick and no pain. Had enough pain in my life so want my death to be peaceful x

Ditto.

 

[Rachel74]

Ditto.

Now I need to get the stuff x

 

[TAW122]

I'm going via a shotgun with 00 buckshot loads because of the instantaneous lights out, reliability, and death ensuing very shortly after it. If assisted-suicide and voluntary euthanasia was legal and allowed for people suffering for years (not just limited to the terminally ill), then of course, I'd choose a more peaceful and reliable method. However, most parts of the world, including the majority of the US that is not the case, so shotgun it is.

Yes, it sucks that it leaves a hell of a mess, but I don't feel as bad because of how fucked up society and humanity is in general, always selfish, trying to intervene and play hero, making every reliable method to escape this hellish existence harder to obtain/access (and still getting tighter over time). This is also a way of saying "Fuck you society, this is what you did! Your selfish ways have caused this mess. You could have allowed peaceful ways to go, but no you deny that and not only censor people for talking about suicide, but even go as far as forcibly locking up (psych holds, involuntary commitment, etc.) people who express suicidal ideation/intent. This is the result of your actions, so you reap what you sow."

 

[262653]

I am seriously considering hanging or throat-slitting, either way I'll be aiming of the neck, like Legolas. Hopefully I'll prove to be just as accurate.

Complex, multi-step methods like SN aren't an option for me because I don't want to go through the hassle of researching the stuff, how it works, how to get, how to use... that's too much for my lazy ass. If I have enough energy and motivation to deal with this ordeal, I might as well consider cultivating a life worth living...

Hanging on the other hand is more simple and straightforward. I have a decent rope, and as of late a decent anchor point too. Also I really don't give a damn about the aftermath, how my lifeless shell would look and how would it affect others. Common method for common folks, I don't really know what to add.

 

[Bathsheba]

I do think my method of choice reflects me. Beachy head is beautiful and has a sort of romance to it. It isn't passive, it's dramatic and will involve drink and drugs before I jump. It doesn't involve overdosing on anything chemical which scares me. It's iconic as a suicide spot which reflects my need for conformity, at least in terms of my death and other like minded people. It can be spontaneous and doesn't require any sort of regime before hand which I know would make my SI kick in big time..

 

[LuzurPhagget]

I'm really banking on the charcoal method. Going out kind of like sleeping. One of the few things I enjoy in life.
I really hope my body is never found, so I plan on driving as far as possible to a secluded place and die the way I lived: alone and hopefully forgotten.
If that fails, hopefully partial suspension in the woods. Hopefully it'll be a peaceful transition because I'm a coward and can't take the pain.
And if that doesn't work, either a good ol full hangin. I am entertaining the idea of cutting my carotid artery and bleeding out, but I know I don't have the balls for that.

 

[Dawn0071111]

I read that a lot of poets, intellectuals, writers died by gas poisoning...

I guess the "creatives" tend to go by gas or poison.. we are so damned sensitive.. lol