Im the opposite-my so called family could have done so so much that would have helped me to lead a better life, to feel a little happier, to have a little self worth. I dont nessarily want them to know that and they wouldnt believe it anyway, they will believe what they want. I'm sorry you feel this way, despite having a family that care, such a huge spectrum of reasons on here for people wanting to ctb-there really is not one size fits allfor reasons. it would be easier for people tounderstand if there was. Its such a complex issue.
I just want them to try and wrap there heads around the concept that not wanting to live any more does not automatically mean you are "mentally ill" sure for some people a mental illness is part of it- but many thousands of people have taken there own lives without having a a mental illness as such. Again i would like to quote-maslow's hierarchy of needs- which is an excellent system in order to understand that which human beings need in order to have not only that sense of imediate security in life, plus love , but also meaning, value & purpose. The irony is, is that a certain few people that have decided I have a mental illness- die to attempts on my own life- exhibit far far moresigns of a variety of mental illness's than I- and in fact having to deal with that in my life, is at least one factor in me feeling like i've just had enough. So that would be all- im rational, clear -headed, sane, logical-not even depressed as such (in the sense of when one feels depressed for no discernable reason) -just deeply sad, despairing & hopeless- for many real,tangible, fact based reasons.
