What do you think I should do

[SpaxeZ]

So I just made a reddit post on r/suicidewatch two months ago about something I was going through and some people PMed me. Out of those I came to become friends with one and we kept getting closer and closer and vido calling everyday for long hoirs talking about everything. Now that I'm close to commiting I'm kinda concerned about how this is going to affect her. I just tried to open the topic many times and ask about her views on how it would affect her and trying to say I kinda have to but then again she always said that she had lost close people to suicide and that would hurt her. Idk what to do right now. I have to commit suicide I don't want this life. I have non curable sexual dysfunction and also inside a refugee camp. I'm screwed. This is torture and more torture to want to keep someone alive by gaslighting them when they don't want to live. What should I do?

 

[FuneralCry]

I think that only you can really decide what is best for yourself as only you are the one who is in your situation. But the way that I see it, I could never suffer only for the sake of others, and anyway none of us are obligated to continue existing at all. But it does sound like a difficult situation to be in, but anyway the fact is that grief and loss are simply a part of life. Even if we don't ctb we will all have to die and lose everything someday.