Dying will be pretty interesting, I think. Here is a quote from
Principles of Forensic Medicine by William Augustus Guy (first published 1861) on death by hanging (which is how I am thinking I will ctb):
We are not without information as to the sensations that accompany death by hanging. Suicides who have been saved from death, and philosophers who have instituted experiments on themselves, have both contributed something to our knowledge. It appears that these sensations are not always the same; and the difference probably depends on the various degrees in which the windpipe and blood-vessels are compressed. Some have retained no recollection of what happened to them; others were conscious of sudden loss of sense and motion; in others a deep sleep was ushered in by flashes of light, by a bluish flame, by brilliant circles of colours, or by ocular illusions of a more definite kind, accompanied by hissing or singing in the ears. In other instances, again, the sensations are stated to have been extremely pleasurable, though of short duration.
These sensations resemble those that occur in cases of disordered cerebral circulation, and those that precede the fits in some cases of epilepsy.
As for death itself, I believe in an afterlife. I hope and pray that I would make it to Heaven. I imagine it as (among other things) a situation where I can do all the historical research and reading that I could not do in this life, be reunited with deceased loved ones and friends, meet ancestors and historical figures, etc. But I believe that whatever God has in store for me -- if I make it to Heaven -- will be wonderful. (If I don't make it to Heaven -- even after a sojourn in Purgatory -- that means I will be in Hell and suffer alone forever and ever.)I believe in god and is one of my fears about not going some say you go to hell for murder some say if you accept jesus you're saved so you go to heaven and some give examples in the bible that suicide is ok not sure so I will wait until the pain gets beyond anyone capability for coping then ill probably be forgiven