What do you recommend me to use as suspension?
Do you think the clonazepam and being drunk help to sleep my survival instinct?
I'm really not an expert for hanging but I'd suggest a strong, static (little elagonation) climbing rope.
I think for fighting the survival instinct, you just need to be at peace with yourself. Take your time and be 100% sure of what you're doing. Then you'll be at peace with you and the world.
Then you don't need any drugs. Cause youll be calm when you do it.