Ladylethal
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- Jun 16, 2019
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I realize this question is well...Silly but regardless everyone wants to be remembered for something. Right?
I'm sorry i didn't mean to make you feel even worse.Well what can they say about me though in any meaningful way?
"Oh yea he was a nice and quiet guy' or my mother's response would be, "He was my special and loving baby boy" but none of that makes me feel anything. I won't be remembered for much outside of my family and I suppose they'll remember me as just another good person, brother, son, etc. and try their best to remember whatever 'good' times they had with me all the while ignoring the fact I felt nothing during most it. Damn I just sunk myself deeper into my thoughts, fuck.
Hmm that is one way to think about it...It really is.I hope nobody remembers me, because whatever legacy I leave behind other than a corpse or a skeleton, does not reflect anything about me. And if I'm remembered, it will be the memory of someone who never existed but instead something twisted into an image of bullshit.
Hmm that is one way to think about it...It really is.
Sigh you're right honestly.You know how it is... They will either just talk trash about you or say you were blah blah blah <- a good person according to their silly beliefs. And then unleash some crocodile tears to use your death to gain something and/or start virtue signaling in one way or another too. From my point of view, it would be like someone pissing on my grave...
Unfortunate truth. This is why I hope I can just disappear.You know how it is... They will either just talk trash about you or say you were blah blah blah <- a good person according to their silly beliefs. And then unleash some crocodile tears to use your death to gain something and/or start virtue signaling in one way or another too. From my point of view, it would be like someone pissing on my grave...
A part of me hopes people would remember me as someone who loved her closest friends. But then, I realize almost everyone (except my bf and my online friends) left the moment it became too uncomfortable.I realize this question is well...Silly but regardless everyone wants to be remembered for something. Right?
I feel that. Trust me.Unfortunate truth. This is why I hope I can just disappear.
A part of me hopes people would remember me as someone who loved her closest friends. But then, I realize almost everyone (except my bf and my online friends) left the moment it became too uncomfortable.
I sort of feel like I've always loved my close friends more than they ever loved me. For better or worse, I'd do anything to try to make people I love happy or keep them safe. But then, it hurts more when I realize that same level of caring isn't close to reciprocated by people I consider "close."I feel that. Trust me.
I've been there for so many people....not one of them is here for me. I thought if you treated people like you wanted to be treated well....just thought eventually they would. I understand how you feel. CompletelyI sort of feel like I've always loved my close friends more than they ever loved me. For better or worse, I'd do anything to try to make people I love happy or keep them safe. But then, it hurts more when I realize that same level of caring isn't close to reciprocated by people I consider "close."
I think people take you for granted. Until you're dead. The sad thing is the time you'll be "loved" the most is your funeral.I've been there for so many people....not one of them is here for me. I thought if you treated people like you wanted to be treated well....just thought eventually they would. I understand how you feel. Completely
Yep, I know that routine.... You bend over backwards for others, but call out for help and watch them all scatter like roachesI've been there for so many people....not one of them is here for me. I thought if you treated people like you wanted to be treated well....just thought eventually they would. I understand how you feel. Completely
Sad but trueYep, I know that routine.... You bend over backwards for others, but call out for help and watch them all scatter like roaches
Do you feel any distinction between nothingness and despair?Well what can they say about me though in any meaningful way?
"Oh yea he was a nice and quiet guy' or my mother's response would be, "He was my special and loving baby boy" but none of that makes me feel anything. I won't be remembered for much outside of my family and I suppose they'll remember me as just another good person, brother, son, etc. and try their best to remember whatever 'good' times they had with me all the while ignoring the fact I felt nothing during most it. Damn I just sunk myself deeper into my thoughts, fuck.
I've been there for so many people....not one of them is here for me. I thought if you treated people like you wanted to be treated well....just thought eventually they would. I understand how you feel. Completely