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Circles
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- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,297
Yet another day of experiencing death without even fucking thinking about it, a baby bird that me and my brother tried to help just died. I don't know what to feel as I feel desensitized with death now. I wish things weren't so dreadful and uncontrollable especially when you actually try to help another living being live. I feel sad for the mom not knowing what happened. I feel sad for the baby bird but I feel it's better it didn't have to suffer anymore either. It's just such a conflicting experience every time I'm around death like as much as I want to die I fucking hate being around death of other people most especially animals. It also reminds me of my dogs death and how senseless and unexpected it was. It's mentally fucking exhausting already thinking about suicide and death most of the time and being reminded of it outside of myself especially every fucking day just shows how depressing and gloomy life is. I just want to feel numb now. Uuuuggggghhhhh.
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